Hello everyone. I know I’ve been making a lot of posts pretty much about the same thing, but I’m very worried. I’ve never been this worried about myself before.
Yesterday I had a really bad day. I had a really bad anxiety attack in the morning. I calmed down and the rest of my day went okay, but last night when I laid down for bed (I was very tired, I think my anxiety attack that morning had made me so tired) I was struggling to sleep because every noise that I heard was giving me a weird sensation. I don’t really know how to explain it, but it was making me feel like I would pass out or have a seizure (I’ve never actually passed out or had a seizure before) and that noise thing happens with me very often and I don’t know why. Mainly at bed time though.
If you’ve ready any of my other posts, you’d know I have been dizzy, lightheaded, feel like I can’t breathe, chest pain, nausea, etc. I also had a blood test, urine test, chest X-ray, and an ekg done in July and I had another ekg at the beginning of August. So twice in the last 3 months I’ve been told that it’s just anxiety. Although my new symptoms since then which is the sound thing and I also get random numbness. Last night my calf started hurting really bad and then my foot went numb a few minutes later and i was worried that I had a blood clot and today I’m worried that I might be on the verge of having a stroke or a heart attack at 19 years old. I know that’s pretty uncommon, but I always feel like I’m that 1% that it will happen to. My whole body is in pain. I shouldn’t feel this way at 19.
I have no health insurance and I have been looking into treatment at this free mental health clinic. I filled out paperwork about 2-3 weeks ago and I’ve been meaning to go back. I was supposed to go back today, but I couldn’t get myself to go up there, so I guess I will have to try again tomorrow...