Anxious and feeling very much alone

[Careful1]

Hello all, my name is Tanya and I have suffered with anxiety off and on over the years. When I was 20 years old I started having heart arrhythmia's and getting the long road to a diagnosis was a very long and anxious one that ended up opening a huge hole that took me many years to climb out of. I eventually some how managed to dig myself out and spent the next 8 years anxiety free...

last year I started getting some really disturbing symptoms and now a little over a year later with no answers and things only getting worse I am entering a really bad depression and everyday that goes by with no answers and every new symptom or worsening of current ones is causing me great distress and serious anxiety.... I do not know how much more of all this I can take before I crack.. I am terrified and am starting to feel like I will not get any answers until it is to late.... I have been trying really hard not to let the anxiety get the best of me while I go through all the appointments and testing to figure out what is going on but I am no longer in control. Its very frustrating and down right scary when appointment after appointment, specialist after specialist, test after test yields no answers. Most of the doctors I have seen agree that something is going on but what they do not know and then there are some doctors who blame everything solely on anxiety just because they don't have the answers. At one point I even tried to convince myself that the answer is anxiety but more and more things keep happening that just cant be explained by anxiety, like the visible things that can be seen on my body and the fact that I have had anxiety for many years and I know what it feels like..

So, how do I not loose myself to anxiety while I deal with all this? How do I make it to answers without getting further into the hole that took me several years to get out of? How do I not loose my mind? How can I come out of this depression? How can I have one minute of peace where I am not scared to death of whatever is going on with my health? I feel very much alone and all I have going on is that much harder to deal with feeling this way...

Can anyone relate? Have any of you been through something similar? Please any advice or words of wisdom, I am desperate and all ears....

Thank you for reading

[Dorsey]

Oh i can certainly relate to what your saying i feel for you. I have suffered for 37 years and everyday i have a different symptom. Sometimes i worry about my health everyday and thats not healthy. I don't know what your symptoms are but i think I've suffered them all. Gzve up going to doctors as any medication i tried made me feel worse. I just don't know what the answer is so like you everyday is a struggle. The only time i have any releif is if i get out for a couple of hours and i talk to people it all goes away but next day it's back again. Hope you get some answers soon.

[Cstod]

All I can say is I have been in your shoes. Until I was able to actually just sit with a dr and we talked about anxiety and panic attacks and what it actually does . He gave me a small prescription of sertaline 12g (mind you had xnax before ) I wrote a log daily what I was doing by the hour and for a week I noticed what my triggers were. Finally it took my 1 year to actually take the stupid pill at night. I have been on this for 4 months and all of the horror and issues have gone away. I was so upset that I waited to long to take it! Just my life as of today and I haven’t been happier since . It has given me life back and I feel so normal again . My sister and one cousin are in the same amount and time frame of use and we all compare to see . The people around me even notice ! Good luck just thought I share my small journey I’m on of help! FYI God and prayers are my everyday help to and it’s amazing 😊