Hi, it's been a long time since I've been on but, unfortunately, things are back with a bang. I've had a few major family issues to deal with which increased my stress no end. I was coping really well until we had 3 close family members, including my Dad pass away. Then mum gets diagnosed with bowel cancer. Talk about being hit for 6 and all of this over a 5 month period. I've been juggling looking after mum, family and work but I finally cracked last weekend. My vision seemed to go strange whilst watching TV, then whilst out driving, I had the first panic attack for nearly 18 months. I managed to calm myself quite quickly using the techniques I'd learned about but all the old feelings have now returned. The trouble is that they have been increased after seeing my GP. I thought I'd be able to cope but she wants me to have a scan to make sure I've not had a TIA. Whilst it will, hopefully, reassure me that everything is ok, I'm now overly stressed worrying what the scan might find. I can't get these thoughts out of my head though. I'm currently on 10mg of Citalopram, which I know is low but I was managing happily until last week. Now I feel awful most of the time with constant neck pain - though GP reckons this is muscular. So scan next week, then 4 weeks before I get results. Will try all the techniques I've used before, but the stress I'm having now is 100% worse than when I first succumbed to this 18 months ago. Any help and advice gratefully received. Was thinking of upping my meds to 20mg - any thoughts on that as GP thought it might be worth doing but I initially said no as I didn't want an side effects on increasing it. I remember what it was like when I started on them! Thanks for listening, had to off load somewhere.