im here for therapy.

[Johnnie1234]

im here and i was going here and they said my case had got closed that have to reopen my case here and after i do then they will do appointment with the therapist. hope ill be good and this past i feel like im just crazy being here with all types of people that had problem and look crazy.

[Elizabeth04]

Good luck. Your not crazy, don't worry

[Lm92]

Johnnie, it seems like you're having an awful lot of issues at that particular office. Maybe try another? Lots of people from all walks of life go to therapy. That doesn't mean they're crazy. It means they're proactive and trying to help themselves and not go through needless suffering. It's so they can have an unbiased ear to listen to them as they get things off their chest that they can't talk to anyone else about. Johnnie, you know you have to do something. The very definition of insanity (crazy) is doing the same thing over and over and expecting things to change. You have to step outside the tiny box you've created for yourself, that's doing nothing but hurting you, or you definitely aren't going to get better. As you've seen in this past year and a half that you've done nothing to help yourself, it's only gotten worse. It will only continue to get worse and worse unless you seek help, period.

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Lm92]

they open my case back again they said now i could go see my therapist the 24th of this month they said if need to see her as soon as possible to call again then they will change it for sooner.

[Lm92 in reply to Johnnie1234]

With the issues you're having and for as long and as horrible as they've been, don't you think sooner would be a better idea? Sometimes you have to be forceful when it comes to getting the service you need.

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Lm92]

i dont want nobody to think im crazy or people around me thats what is the really problem and im afriad of those kind of pills because i dont wanna get worst because the pills treat it for amount of time then when the pills stop working those feelings would hit harder and strong thats what ive heard from other people exprince.

[Lm92 in reply to Johnnie1234]

Just because you go to therapy doesn't mean they'll recommend pills. A therapist can't prescribe medicine. Only a psychiatrist can do that. Just be sure to tell your therapist you want to work on your issues without taking medication until it's a last resort.

My experience is that medication has never made my issues worse. I've gone off of them several times and usually go a year or 2 feeling just fine and then I start having problems with depression again and restart medication. It isn't an issue the medication causes, but an issue in chemicals like serotonin in my brain.

Just give your therapist a shot. Call them and tell them you need in ASAP because you've suffered long enough and you need to learn some coping skills so you can get your life back. There's nothing wrong with trying that without medication and seeing how you go.

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Lm92]

also i start a new job tommarow . but they way im feeling i dont even know.

[Lm92 in reply to Johnnie1234]

It'll be good for you! It'll keep your mind busy and I'll bet you do great.

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Lm92]

you think soo ? ill make good money but the way i got these thoughts i feel like im loosing my mind ugh .

[Lm92 in reply to Johnnie1234]

I think it'll be excellent for you!

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Lm92]

hopefully i feel like its ocd i think how can i get better

[Maagaa]

Curious to know what Jeff and Agora think they have given the most wonderful advice to 1234 to no avail. Another excuse? Or are we all codependent?

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Maagaa]

if you gonna come with the negativeity then dont responde to it

[Maagaa in reply to Johnnie1234]

Great 1234 are you coming around? I hope so this text sounds promising not jumbled. Good news everyone’s in your corner go for the job go to the next therapy appointment and I really wish you luck no negativity

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Maagaa]

im sorry to talk that way but it stress me out even more hopefully it does ugh. i wanna be good already

[Maagaa]

You will be good Johnnie work at please don’t bewallowing in pity. All of us have been there keep looking upward and going forward good things will happen

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Maagaa]

also i dont know why those thoughts wont leave my head its super wired never i would think that way . i feel like im ill

[Maagaa]

You are ill you need a full blood work up along with hormonal testing, a good therapist would send you for numerous tests and then consult with a Doctor if you need to be on meds because the therapist cannot prescribe medication. Make sure you get there on the 23rd

[Johnnie1234 in reply to Maagaa]

where do i get those type of blood test done. i never heard of it .

[1OshunDreamer]

Lm92 is giving you sound advice. First, you not anyone on here is not crazy. We are all being proactive in seeking help.

Second, I always kept my " mental problems" under wraps until recently. I had to explain my behavior a few times and people opened up. Suddenly I realized EVERYONE has some mental disorder or another. No one is perfect. And, that I dont have mental PROBLEMS, I have a mental HEALTH issue. Think of mental health this way, it is the same as diabetes. Both you can survive with no meds or treatment, however you will get sick down the road. You may have to go on or off meds depending on how we'll you are controlling either disease. You can live without meds and be healthy if you follow dr.s orders and live certain ways of life. Those ways may include therapy, visiting for Dr etc.

[Johnnie1234 in reply to 1OshunDreamer]

you take meds mines is up in the roof i feel like its high the stress and mental disorder.