I can't stop thinking about dying

[Hollylaura]

I know we are all going to dye, it's the inevitable but I just can't stop thinking of dying, it's driving me crazy, I'll be getting on with my day and it'll just pop into my head, there will be a last time I do this or I may be to old for this one day, my son will grow up and leave home, or even worse I'll dye while he's still a child and he'll be left without his mum, nothing works I don't even know where to start on getting help for this, I have suffered with anxiety and panick attachs since I was 18, it came on all of a sudden while I was working at a bar one day, someone came over and was telling me a joke and then my face started to tremble, I couldn't breathe or speak, my hands where sweating and within weeks of this happening I woke up covered in psoriasis, I have that under control now but have never been able to control my anxiety, I have refused medications, as I don't trust them and wouldn't want to be dependant on something, some days I'm okish but all of the time I avoid people at all costs, I wouldn't even dream of going to any kind of social event, I guess what I'm looking for is advise on how to control my anxiety or where to get help from and tips on how I can stop thinking of dying all the time! It makes me terribly sad some days to think I'll leave my loved ones or they will leave me! I lost my brother 2 years ago and found out I was pregnant at the same time and I think that's when the death thing all started,

[alex0120]

I feel the same, but now it’s not very often I think I’m better about it, but the think it’s that you are not the only one who thinks that and you know what helps me in that cases it’s to call a person who i trust and tell her to come over so i can hug her, hugging her always helped maybe you could that too, I’m not saying it would work a 100% but maybe it will help you. Or if you wanna talk about it I’m here if i can help you, I’m a good listener well i think so.

[Gambit62]

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[Jitterychic]

I know the feeling, i have a 10 year old, and all i think about is what will happen to her if i die? And there it starts all over again. A traumatic event i can't even understand, til this day is what bloomed my fears. My mom had cancer at 47 was told she had 4 months to live and she lived 9 years, with poor life quality, of course. I had to care for her, i was 14 at the time. That and many other family problems too, i guess are the detonaters of my anxiety attacks and fear of death.