I barely sleep anymore..the hardest phobia to accept for me..

[The_Anxiety_War]

I've been dealing with a phobia of going to sleep and never waking up...yet I awoke each morning..yet the fear got more real...more anxious...more scary and heartbreaking..and I've been dealing with it two weeks now, basically passing out from watching YouTube and then waking up not knowing when I went to sleep and how much sleep I actually got. But now because I dwell on any negative thought gullibly due to anxiety...i now fear actual death in my sleep, to make it worse I'm constantly thinking now of life after death..will there be an afterlife? Or will I cease to be and there will just be nothing, nothing at all. No thoughts, no awareness, nothing (I understand that the reality of that situation wouldn't matter if I died because I wouldn't think or comprehend anything at all). It's become so difficult that now I hardly sleep..each night I might sleep 3 hours..maybe 4..waking up between those times I sleep too...then I fear dying of sleeping deprivation regardless of the fact that Im still somewhat getting SOME sleep..i just..i fear dying in sleep because of all these thoughts fighting against me at one time and has caused me to develop somniohobia, insomnia, and a fear of being unconscious..i don't know how to accept it for every night I try to lay down now, I'm afraid I'll die for no logical reason. Like. Basically I think that since I'm thinking that I'll die in my sleep or die in from psychological things (I guess), that it will happen..and that I'm dooming myself to self annihilation from my bad intrusive thoughts..i just want my sleep back..i miss sleeping without hesitation so much..i miss my other intrusive thoughts about blindness and derealization so much..they were much easier to deal with...and all this lack of sleep makes anxiety worse too..its annoying how anxiety takes logic out of any situation and throws it out the window..does anyone have any advice for me? A similar experience that they perhaps overcame? I'm not on meds atm and not seeing a therapist but I'm considering seeing one soon and setting up an appointment because no human should live and suffer like this..to not want to live yet fear death so much..

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The sooner you see a gp the better I'd say, I can relate to your fears, it's overwhelming when your actually going through something like this, talk to your doctor, if he prescribes meds then give them a go, you've nothing to loose xxx

[Jeff1943]

So you've rejected the suggestion that concentrating on your symptoms will never bring about recovery and you should instead concentrate only on the cause of your anxiety, over sensitised nerves, in order to recover.

All you are doing here is to continue listing the same symptoms you've listed several times before rather than reporting your plans for recovery, ie the acceptance method, and how you're progressing.