Talking anxiety with my family is challenging

[Daniellesparkles]

May not make sense to some

This is how I am feeling

And what happened today

I’m literally falling apart as I write this.

By that meaning lots crying and blaming myself for being such a clumsy person

Both my parents and family know about my anxiety issues which are deeply rooted toward my health

It’s honestly not my fault

That I get like this at every twinge of pain

Or Tripp or bump or any other weird pain that comes randomly to body

I can’t turn it off I wish I could

This defense in my body made for danger is turning on me every time I slip trip or feel any type of pain that seems strange

My family’s called me crazy , irrational

That I’m make it up to go to a doctor

That the pains in my head and body are not there

sending me to a mental institution etc.

Well it happened today

It was a nice day

Then at 3:00pm today i tripped over the doggy fence in the kitchen I broke it while tripping and my dad yelled at me I landed hard with my left side on the floor I didn’t hit my head when I tripped but 10mins after the headache and neck pain slowly started ? I took a panadol right afterwards hasn’t helped I googled and sent myself panicking about concussions and internal brain bleeds related to falls and tripping just getting even more anxious again more than I was already

Texted my mom about it and she ignored me or ignored the I’m in pain part

I expressed my concern and wanting to check myself over and she said no

It’s 10:14pm right now just came back from shopping with Mom now she yelled at me because I wanted to make sure this wasn’t serious and get checked out

I understand her I do this most of the time I can’t help it

It’s how I cope I guess

It still hurt my feelings though

I’m crying in my room right now feeling stupid

My anxiety hasn’t been this bad in three years.. I feel ridiculous for crying about this

pain hasn’t gotten worse but still anxious about any thing going on internally inside

Thanks to google

Idk what to do

What should I do ?

Any advice

Anybody else been through this?

[Dennison]

Have you been diagnosed with GAD? I know that personal and you dont have to answer but thats what GAD does to us. Other things that worry others a little bit, worry people with GAD times a 1000....and no one else will understand. Its tough when no one around you understands. I worry about getting mental illnesses all the time, thats my thing....allllll day long.

[Daniellesparkles in reply to Dennison]

Yes it’s very hard and I might as well be diagnosed with GAD

[Dennison in reply to Daniellesparkles]

Well, maybe you could talk to a Psychologist? They are going to be able to help you with CBT skills. Don't go through life handling this alone. You need someone that at the very least understands, talking with people online is awesome but I know from experience in person is better. Find someone that understands what you're going through and also a Psychologist. Lots of our family members do not understand what we are going through...try not to have that let you down....theres no way theyll understand... There's people your age and gender near you that will relate with you and help you, I know that support system is important. Youll find that. Just have to look around. Maybe an anxiety support group near you?

[Daniellesparkles in reply to Dennison]

Thank you I’ll try to find some

[Dennison in reply to Daniellesparkles]

until then, and even then you always have this website

[b1b1b1]

It is very painful to feel so much anxiety and the mental pain, worry and fear is very real. Does your university have any sort of mental health counseling?

[Daniellesparkles in reply to b1b1b1]

Yes they do it’s confidential

[b1b1b1 in reply to Daniellesparkles]

Can you go to see the mental health counseling at the university? It is very good that it is confidential. People who do not have these problems do not really understand so it is important to be able to speak to someone in total privacy so you can fully express your fears. In the meantime, know that you are not the only one who has these fears. xx

[Daniellesparkles in reply to b1b1b1]

Thanks I’ll have to force myself to I’ve never tried it I’ll see if I can go this week maybe

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

With bad anxiety our nervous system is sensitized. That is why we feel every ache and twinge more than other people. It can make us more sensitive to pain also. You have to try to do a quick check if you get hurt. Am I bleeding or is anything disfigured etc then if not try to move on and distract yourself. Take a walk, read, listen to music etc. Hope that helps some! ❤️

[Daniellesparkles in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Thanks! Still sore but doing ok so far

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Daniellesparkles]

Thats good. Just rest. Try not to put too much thought into it. Your anxiety will make it worse. Easier said than done as I know. Just focus on something else. When you quit thinking about it then it will go away.

[Daniellesparkles in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Thanks oh and mornin

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Daniellesparkles]

❤️

[gerrerd]

Your thoughts cause stress not the world. Control your thoughts and you can control your world of reality. Hope this helps study it. Gerrerd.