I recently wrote about morning diarrhoea and anxiety.
But when I wake my stomach churns and I am shaking and sweating and feeling sick. The whole thing is as if I am reliving a stomach bug I had 3 months ago.
I have to drag myself out of bed, force myself to eat. And by the evening I am feeling calmer. But then I dread going to bed because I fear the mornings so much. It is a vicious circle that I can't get out of. I suffer with emetophobia which doesn't help.
I am going to the doctors tomorrow, but she doesn't seem to understand.
I am in such a state, my life seems a complete misery.
Does anyone know what I'm going through, have you any ideas? I would be grateful just to talk right now as nothing else seems worth it, I can't even go out through fear of being ill.
Thank you for reading xx