Flashbacks ?

[Jmerrick22]

Lately I've been very emotional. Last year on November 22nd, I had what I call a near death experience. I had such a bad panic attack it left me traumatized. This past week all I keep thinking is there's something wrong with me or I'm gonna stop breathing or fall over dead. I'm having weird thoughts. And I'm paranoid. Example a good friend of mines son, who is my age (24) just was found dead a few days ago. And me right away I get fixiated on that . Like oh my god what if that happens to me , what if I ever tried to hurt myself. I don't wanna die , I'm scared etc. thankfully I'm on Prozac just started about a week ago again so I hope it helps me at least control these weird thoughts. I'm kinda embarrassed to talk to people about all this because I'm afraid of being judged like I'm crazy . I went to a shrink before and I didn't like her she kept looking at me like I'm a nut job. I have bad anxiety and it makes me somewhat depressed. I travel 120 miles a day round trip to work and that's really getting to me sitting at a desk all day, I change jobs in less than two weeks thank god I found one closer. It's like if I'm with a group of people I'm fine , but I can't sit . I need my mind constantly occupied. What helps you guys ?? Sorry for ranting .

[Jeff1943]

Jmerrick, if you'd had a near death experience you would not now be scared of death.

[Jmerrick22]

It felt like one is what I meant .

[Finglas-Boy]

When I had my TBI I "died" twice in ICU & had to be "plugg ito the mains" to get back. Thought things like only happened on TV & woke with bruises the size of fists on my chest. First couple of days I was very quiet as I cam to terms with my own mortality & now embrace thoughts of death. There is nothing wrong with you. You've been privileged to experience something comparatively few of us get to. Your work trip won't help though. I work total flexi-time ie; I'm contracted to s 37.5 hr week & how those hrs are made up is up to me allowing me to work from home. Any ov time I can take payment for or time off in lieu. Only pain for me is flying to various commitments. But in essence I can mould my work around my home life so I'm extremely fortunate as my depression/anxiety is not as bad as it could be. 🇮🇪

[Francesca61]

Hi my opinion is that when you start the new job closer to home, your anxiety will go down. Then slowly your mind and body can start to heal. And definitely you are not crazy 😊

[Isaack]

I'm sorry you went through that's and honestly the best thing is to distract yourself and I don't think you can die from a panic attack!! So don't worry