So i was looking threw some old videos of my son on my phone when he was an infant and all I could think about was how I wanna be that mother again and be that happy and feel the same as I did in the videos. Im feeling so low right now because I miss that old me. This me dwells on illnesses that aren't there and all I do is worry about the negatives. My drs said im doing better but I don't. This wave of depression just hit me hard. I want the old me back!!!