Afraid that I am about to die at any minute :(

[deesmilesx3]

Hi, all!

Good morning, afternoon, and evening! (Whichever time you are.) — today, I came on here, nervous. Was coming out of church and the smell of a leaf blower had burned the inside of my nose and feel like it spread to my throat then lungs. I mean, the smell was strong and had to cover my nose, but can still smell it.

Gosh, I wish I didn't do that. I was thinking about it in the car and tried to cough + breath. But couldn't. I had came home and search up on Google to see what are the effects (bad thing to do) of inhaling exhaust from a leaf blower and of course, the effects scared me. Now I got a feeling that I am going to get something from this.

I'm sorry. I need real help.

Deanna

[Christory77]

You would have to inhale a lot of exhaust to do any kind of damage. Just try not to overthink about it. Deep breathe, and try and relax. Overthinking will only make it worse.

[deesmilesx3 in reply to Christory77]

I'm trying my best to not over think. Stuff like this, makes me turn for the worse. But ohh! It felt like my insides were burning and I thought I would have stop breathing then passed out.

[Christory77 in reply to deesmilesx3]

Understandable. Just try and work through it

[deesmilesx3 in reply to Christory77]

Yes, I will. Thank you for responding! I just thought from smelling it on accident will bring some problems. But anyways, I appreciate it!

[Lalakeyss]

Hi Deanna, I understand what that feels like, to overthink about everything... to feel like everyday is dooms day. I literally fear that I am going to drop dead at any given moment, any given day, any given time. The other day, I was flat ironing my hair (something that I have done 1 million times in my 30 years of life) and the flat iron got so smoky (not to mention every window in the house was open) and I thought, what if I inhale this tiny bit of smoke and die! It's so random and outrageous and I hate that I think like this. The mind is so damn powerful. Do not let it trick you, do let it overwhelm you. You are protected by God, he's not going to give up on you or me or anyone of us. It isn't our time yet. Keep praying, keep fighting... things will most definitely get better. ❤️

[deesmilesx3 in reply to Lalakeyss]

I flat iron/curl my hair and the smoke doesn't scare me. Just the smell lol. But yes, I think me doing it, it's how the way my mind is when it comes to being anxious. If you get what I'm saying. You're right though! I cannot let it trick me. Been having anxiety since my first panic attack in 2010 or 2011. I'm taking one step at a time, kicking it's butt lol. But thank you so much for your positive words at the end! ❤ Touched me and brought tears to my eyes. I know it's not going to be like this always. That's why I got to keep on fighting.

[Hidden]

Hey Deanna! No worries, you would have to breathe in A LOT of it for an extended period. For a point of reference, I've had to work a trencher in my earlier years and I breathed so much diesel exhaust for so long that I would have black soot in my nose at the end of the day.

Since you were leaving church, live by the Spirit of peace, not the spirit of fear <3 A spirit of fear confines us; a spirit of peace free's us!

[deesmilesx3 in reply to Hidden]

Hi, rockstar321! And thank you so much. Lol. I thought I was going to drop dead after inhaling some of that exhaust.

I've always have to Google if I had inhaled this or experience a symptom (which I shouldn't be doing, Dr. Google is bad)

And yes! I forgot what scripture it was in the Bible but it's talking about peace. — but thank you! You're awesome😊💜