I need to write this..

[caitsxxx1]

This post may be a very long post but if someone anyone can please give me any reassurance please I'm honestly loosing it now 😭.. okay so as I've posted before on here about my bad feelings of dying well it's honestly so bad like it's not my normal anxiety where I feel like I'm having a heart attack and phone an ambulance or I have a headache and think oh god umm dying I'm use to all that and I would much rather have that anxiety again than this what I have ATM.. so here goes I have deeep deep in my tummy a horrible horrible gut butterflie feeling that I'm going to die now soon idk but it feels concrete it won't budge sometimes it goes away but it leaves me in total fear as I feel like it's a sign telling me that I'm impending death as I've read on GOOGLE that people can sense when there going to die and with this feeling being so intense and so strong I feel that it's trying to tell me that and when I tell my doctor she just thinks it's my anxiety like my normal anxiety symptoms but it's not!!!!! It's so different I feel like I don't want to leave my home I don't want to move from my bed I just want to lay here it's like I'm waiting to die tbh and the annoying thing is I don't even feel like going to a&e as I feel there is nothing they can do about it as it's my thoughts and it's going to happen anyway it's inevitable basically so I just don't even go to hospital anymore I just lay here suffering all day everyday my adrenaline must be through the roof I don't want to feel like this i don't want to die I just don't know what else to do there's nothing I can do now if this feeling is telling me this as it's gonna happen and that's it I just can't deal with feeling like this any longer I'm loosing control I feel total despair and I'm absolutely terrified I mean really terrified. Also I normally smoke a lot and I haven't been since feeling this way and now I think that's a sign that my impending death is here I'm withdrawing from things I use to do I think about how I won't be here and all the bad stuff and it scares the crap out of me I know this is so so so long but anyone please can relate to me on this would be amazing!!!

Please don't say it's the same anxiety as it's really not it's completely different it's 10x worse than my normal anxiety about dying..

[Agora1]

caitsxxx1, I agree, I don't think it's anxiety but I do think it's deep depression that has taken over. When people start to withdraw from life, it is a call for help. You feel as if it is a sign that you are going to die but what it is, is a sign that you're slowly dying inside. You've lost interest in anything and everything. It's been ongoing for so long that you are physically and mentally worn out and your body wants to give up. Because of that feeling, your mind is interpreting it as a death and that you are slowly dying. Seeing a doctor and being put on a medication can help turn these thoughts around. My fear is if you don't get help you will start thinking harmful thoughts to yourself and possibly others. You may not believe that you would ever go to those lengths, but I've seen it happen. The time is now for you to seek out professional help. The red flags are up. xx

[caitsxxx1 in reply to Agora1]

Thanks for your reply, yeah I have only recently started not wanting to go out since a week no before that I still went out at weekends with friends but now I don't want to as this feeling is with me constant now 😔 I don't really feel sad though ? Is that depression even when I don't feel sad? When the feeling goes away I feel like I want to do stuff like I want to go out with friends I want to laugh but I'm to scared to incase it comes back again idk man but thanks for replying to me it means a lot and I will go see my gp tomoz xx

[Agora1 in reply to caitsxxx1]

Talk with your GP tomorrow caitsxxx1, he knows your case history best. But as for your question, yes you can be depressed and yet not feel sad. Good Luck and let us know how you are doing after your visit. xx

[lin62-65ze]

You definitely need help from your GP, I totally agree with Agora 1 who has also suffered the same. I honestly do not believe you are going to die, it's your mind playing tricks on you. You do not state if you live alone, if you do it is more important to contact your GP, you also do not state if you are on any medication. Be reassured that we are here for you, and will support you, Action Chaz cares too so you now have 3 of us 😃😃 let us know what your GP says, he may refer you to a counsellor or pyschiastrist for extra help. Soon you WILL get better 🤗🤗

[Garamanda]

Hi

Sorry to hear your having such a bad time.

You need to be ferreted to psychiatrist to get treatment.

Your symptoms are that of depression.

Health anxiety, feelings of doom and isolating onesself, are all aspects of depression.

The depression may be due to outside or internal factors, past trauma or hormone imbalance.

That is why you need to see a mental health specialist and not a GP

Don't be afraid, it is all very common and can be treated, firstly by medication to help your symptoms, then finding out through counselling or therapy if there is an underlying problem, experience or trauma causing your depression, or is it just your brain chemicals out of balance.

Worrying about worrying just escalates you anxiety and therefore the symptoms, so get help asap.

Please note I'm not a a proffesional just a fellow sufferer, who has studied mental health in great length.

You psychiatrist may offer another diagnosis and form of treatment.

So most important, get that appointment

Good luck and take care x