Hi this is my first post on here. A lot of the time I would just google questions about my anxiety and it would bring me to this site as an option, but I never actually joined. The reason I joined is because it makes me feel better to know there are people out there like me and I'm not crazy. I'm 38, single mom of a 19 and 12 year old. I have worked in the mental health field for 15 years. I have terrible health anxiety. It is seriously ruining my life. I won't take medication for it. I'm afraid to take almost any medication, including Tylenol. I don't go to the dr or anything like that a million times. It's more every single little thing I feel in my body, I freak out. I worry that I will just have a seizure or something crazy and drop dead. I don't know when or how this started. I'm starting counseling tomorrow and I can't wait. I need help. I feel like I can't enjoy the things I've always enjoyed. For example my boyfriend and I took a drive to a place a little over an hour from here to hike and see waterfalls. On the drive I was anxious because I felt numbness in my left arm and hand. I almost turned around, but I'm trying to not let this anxiety get the best of me. I love stuff like that and I was really looking forward to it. But sometimes I even eat and get scared I'm going to choke and die on my food. No clue why? Never choked before? Anyways sorry I'm rambling. I'm glad to be here and hope we all get through this!