Let me start by stating that my anxiety isn't what it once was, it's no longer debilitating.
However, I still struggle with the anxiety. I realize it's going to be a life-long struggle and will be something I need to learn how to live with and overcome. I'm trying to look at it as a "marker or alarm" that my body is telling me there is something bothering me that I'm not dealing with.
Perhaps I've been through too much in my life and my mental capacity can't take anymore. So instead of pushing it down and moving on, my anxiety is making me face it head on.
So I will continue to push forward and try to live healthier. Really that's all I can do.
The easy answer, for me, is disease. I have a lung disease-or a heart disease-or a neurological disease- or chronic conditions that no one can find. The problem is, none of the tests can confirm any of that. In fact, all my test say I'm healthy and it all usually boils down to a Dr telling me what I've hear before: "you have anxiety."
So for any of you out there who are still struggling. Just know that it does get better. But also know that there will be bad days along with the good days. Anxiety isn't something you can beat and never have again. Anxiety is normal. In fact, it's your mind and body's way of telling you that there is something you need to deal with. Something you've buried down and don't want to face.
Right now I'm having some bad days. But I look forward to the good ones ahead.