Hi All, This is my first time posting. I have had anxiety for a few years off and on but just around Christmas it manifest to pure fear of fear and was chronic. I truly believed that I was going insane and had suicidal thoughts, i have been working my way through it with the help of the Clair weekes books and some online CBT. But I keep slipping backwards and fear getting worse again. I wake up with the feeling of dread with a sick feeling that stays with me for the rest of the morning no matter what I try. I have had a health anxiety for a long time and this keeps rearing it's head, I'm very read up on the cycle of fear and try not to let it build with adding 2nd fear but it's so hard and wearing me down. I don't want to take any medication and have my camomile tea throughout the day and I have managed 3 weeks with out taking diazepam. I only took this when things got really bad and only took about 10 in total over 5 week's. I do use relaxing visualisation techniques and breathing techniques as needed. Sorry for the rambling post but how does everyone deal with this when it stops you doing anything and makes you feel like it will never end. ? Any thoughts? Cheers Marina.