So tired, just want to sleep to not wake up

[Shepian66]

I've tried for years and I'm ready to slip into the next plane of conciseness. My life for the last 11years has been death after death, it always at my doorway. I'm certain that if I leave my home I will die. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. I'm done. If you can please tell my brother and sister I love them I'm just have no fight left in me.

[Savannah_claire_]

Are you ok? If you need someone to talk to I am here. I am 19 years old and I have been through a lot myself. Message me sometime.

[Shepian66 in reply to Savannah_claire_]

I guess I'm OK, I've never been in this situation before. I just want too go to sleep and not wake up. Just so,so tired.

[Savannah_claire_ in reply to Shepian66]

Is there anything in your life that makes you feel this way? Do you think you are depressed?

[Shepian66 in reply to Savannah_claire_]

I know that on top of anxiety I'm depressed. Was in a accident end of 2013 and I'm on 2 pain meds, 2 anxiety Meds, and 2 for depression.everytime I see my doctor or therapist they just give me more drugs or put the dosage higher. In the last 3 years I've lost my sister, mother, and my wife and daughter. The sister and mother died and I got divorced. Sorry to lay all this on you but I think maybe it will get better if I talk about it. Thanks for listening.

[Agora1 in reply to Shepian66]

Shepian66, I am terribly sorry for your losses. You have gone through a lot of traumatic life events since 2013. The physical as well as emotional pain has brought you to where you are today. I too, think that it's better to talk about the issues causing your anxiety and depression. Holding them in only makes it worse. It seems that you are on a lot of medication as well as therapy. Something needs to change in your life. You are stuck right now. Losses make you feel as if you are at death's door. Losses whether physical or emotional impact the mind and body the same.

What form of therapy does your therapist use and how often? It could be possible that your body has gotten use to the drugs you are on and are no longer effective. (even in raising the dose) Maybe it's time your doctor reassessed your emotional issue as well as the medication.

I'm glad you found this forum. We can at least offer understanding and caring for your situation. We all share our journeys in life and in a small way that helps us not feel so alone, so helpless. Looking forward to seeing you on the forum. It is a good outlet.

[Savannah_claire_ in reply to Shepian66]

Oh wow, I am really sorry for your loss. That explains th anxiety and depression! I'm all ears. Go ahead and vent and if you need advice, I am here to help!

[anxiousalexis]

I understand what you mean. But talk to someone. It's hard to believe, trust me, i feel no hope either, but it does get better. You just need to find your way to cope. Im still learning. I feel hopeless at times, im terrified of life but im trying to push thru it. Just listen to the advice. Read a book. Do whatever makes you comfortable. Who cares what people think. Do what's good for your mental health.