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Anxious-Panic-Harm OCD.

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Hello. I just wanted to give you guys a glimpse into my life with dealing with anxiety/depression and OCD.

I was 18 years old and a senior in High School when I woke up one morning and could NOT shake this anxious feeling in my gut. I legit thought it was just nerves and would subside soon. *Boy Was I Wrong*

So, the more the feeling remained the more I began to panic and worry. I was constantly checking my pulse because my heart was constantly racing and my mind was going a million miles a minute.

Shortly after came VERY troublesome thoughts about suicide and homicide. I HAVE NEVER hurt ANYTHING or ANYONE in my entire life so these thoughts deeply troubled me. Like bbbaaaaadddddd. I dealt with this all alone without telling a single soul for 2 years.

After realizing I was going to need some extra help, I reached out to my doctor who began me on the medication Effexor. That first week of the medication was the worst week of my entire life. However, i stuck with it and things began to improve. I was going strong for about a year until I noticed the effects beginning to wear off. Returning to the doctor, she paired my Effexor with Wellbutrin and I have now been going strong for 3 years!

Don't get me wrong, I still have very few episodes a year with Harm OCD and panic that normally last about 2-3 days but I have learned to simply accept the thoughts and I know for a fact I would never act on anything.

I'm here for any questions or support anyone has. ❤️

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I'm really happy to hear that you are doing much better !! It gives us hope.

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Moonrise007

I'm always happy to see these posts!! I suffer from Harm OCD as well and frequently have thoughts of hurting myself or other people. Just like you, mine came around 18 and it was also out of the blue so I struggled with "why is this happening to me" for a long time. But after being put on an SSRI, I greatly improved as well. I'm soooo happy that you are doing better!!

Much Love ❤ Rachel

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Bird-67

Did you watch the OCD documentary on channel 5 at 10pm last night? It was very helpful.

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Autumnsa in reply toBird-67

No. I hate I missed that!

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Bird-67

Can you get catch up? if not there is a second part next week.

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Autumnsa in reply toBird-67

I'm sure I can find it 😊

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