Hello. I just wanted to give you guys a glimpse into my life with dealing with anxiety/depression and OCD.
I was 18 years old and a senior in High School when I woke up one morning and could NOT shake this anxious feeling in my gut. I legit thought it was just nerves and would subside soon. *Boy Was I Wrong*
So, the more the feeling remained the more I began to panic and worry. I was constantly checking my pulse because my heart was constantly racing and my mind was going a million miles a minute.
Shortly after came VERY troublesome thoughts about suicide and homicide. I HAVE NEVER hurt ANYTHING or ANYONE in my entire life so these thoughts deeply troubled me. Like bbbaaaaadddddd. I dealt with this all alone without telling a single soul for 2 years.
After realizing I was going to need some extra help, I reached out to my doctor who began me on the medication Effexor. That first week of the medication was the worst week of my entire life. However, i stuck with it and things began to improve. I was going strong for about a year until I noticed the effects beginning to wear off. Returning to the doctor, she paired my Effexor with Wellbutrin and I have now been going strong for 3 years!
Don't get me wrong, I still have very few episodes a year with Harm OCD and panic that normally last about 2-3 days but I have learned to simply accept the thoughts and I know for a fact I would never act on anything.
I'm here for any questions or support anyone has. ❤️