Worst panic attack i’v ever had

[Ckd123]

Hey all,

On Saturday night I had the most horrendous, frightening panic attack i’v ever had and i’v had many. I was enjoying the evening at home with hubby and kids, I went into the kitchen with one of my kids trailing behind me chatting away and I suddenly got this hollow, empty weird feeling in my chest/back. I can’t even tell you how much this feeling frightened me, I immediately began to panic thinking something was seriously wrong with me and I was about to die. I ran upstairs trying to calm myself not wanting my kids to see me like this. After a few minutes I had to call my husband up, he can usually calm me but not this time, I was 100% sure I was having a heart attack and I made him bring me to the out of hours doctor. It took ten minutes to get there and I didn’t calm down at all, I was convinced this was the end, the feeling was so bad. I got to the doctor and he saw me straight away, he took blood pressure which was normal, all the time chatting away and asking me questions. He just knew it was a panic attack and I immediately calmed down just by being there with him. He told me to write in a diary, all the bad symptoms I feel everyday and what the outcome was which will make me realise these symptoms were harmless. I’v been doing that and it is helping but I feel crap and exhausted since the panic attack. I’m on meds already so just don’t know what else to do. I’m doing deep breathing and meditation everyday but that weary feeling is still hanging over me. This has been going on three years now and I barely remember my old self 🙁

[Worried-help]

I know how you feel. Panick attacks suck all your energy out. I too have kept a health journal where I write every night how I felt during the day, I even write what I ate that day since it seems like certain foods trigger my flutters. I also put down the meds that i took that day. Writing in my journal helps me so much, it's like a little therapy for my mind. I hope you feel better. That hallow feeling you have, I get that sometimes. I try so hard to push by it because I hate not feeling like my old self. So I totally understand you.

[Ckd123 in reply to Worried-help]

Thanks for reply. I’m feeling hopeless lately, like I’ll never get back to my old self. I feel like i’v just existed for the last three years but not really lived. I hope it’s not having a negative effect on my children, they are 14 and 12 now and I feel I used to be so much more fun when I didn’t have anxiety. I also have a baby who is 1 next week, she is the light of our lives and I want her to have s great childhood like my others did before I got anxiety x

[Worried-help in reply to Ckd123]

Kids can always sence when something about us is off. But please don't blame yourself. It's something that happens and we just have to make the best of it. Maybe you can explain to them if you haven't already...how you feel what is anxiety, and just let them know you will work hard to be like you were before, kids are very smart and they will understand. I had it bad last year in intervals but now I feel better and I feel like this holiday I have so much energy and I'm so excited, I have my moments though where the negative and scary thoughts creep in. But I try so hard to brush them off. Happy birthday to your baby, I'm sure you will make it special and maybe the party planning will take your mind off the anxiety.

[Ckd123 in reply to Worried-help]

Thank you Swan. I am looking forward to my babies party Sunday and I’m getting my hair done tomorrow. I don’t let anxiety keep me indoors but when I am out and about I feel very anxious but I’m good at hiding it xx

[Worried-help in reply to Ckd123]

I understand. I feel it less when I'm with out with someone else.

[Ichthymom]

Sending you some hugs and pray that everything will get better for you!