My son phoned me to lend him 25 pound and to take him to get Cannibus he's moving soon and I was going to rent a van but then he said his girlfriend will have to drive my car but my car is on lease only I can drive and I said she's not driving my car without this car we would be both screwed he went nuts punching his face bringing up the past punching my car bringing up the past.
Before he got in the car I could see he wasn't right and he started after he got his drugs.
I was violent I was lashing out years ago I was having a breakdown and he seen alot and now he's being just like I was his mother didnt have a maternal bone in her body and her behaviour towards my boy helped towards my breakdown I had to leave her because she was opening the window screaming rape or she start a row and leave the house with my boy running screaming for nothing honestly for nothing not even a raised voice I could say more.
I try being there for my son 24/7 but I am I'll and can't cope with much that's why I stay inl day on my own because I feel broken so nervous paranoid.
As I fighting this I just had a text off my son saying sorry Dad but it's left me shaking . I feel I deserve it for being so messed up when he was a kid but his mother was a nightmare a crafty very devious woman that pulled all kind of dirty stunts. My heads in bits and don't know what to do.