I'm new here. Only have access to internet while I'm at work. I'm really needing to talk to someone. I feel like breaking.

[halfofme]

I feel literally like I could just fall over. I do not know how I am sitting in this chair. My head is so heavy, which I see so many other people experience. Sometimes my eyes flutter like there trying to roll back in my head. It's all I can do sometimes to keep them open. I walk into my home and my x-husband, who had told me how much he changed and I let move back in with me, greets me with accusation. Not after telling me there are naked pics of me all over the internet. It's like taking a punch to the gut. There are times I'd prefer that than fighting over me over something that doesn't even exist. I beg him to please stop if not for the day at least an hour of peace. I have been through anorexia, OCD, drug addiction since 17, physical and mental abuse from both of my husbands. I'm 38and not sure how I've made it this long. I needed to talk to someone. I had my first panic attack at 18 and have been on and off of antidepressants since i was 16.

[Agora1]

I'm so sorry halfofme, in what you are going through. It sounds like a nightmare gone wrong. You are under extreme stress right now which is causing extreme anxiety symptoms. We can help support you on the forum but it sounds like you may need professional counseling as well. (maybe even short time medication)

You have been going through emotional pain, half your life and don't deserve that. Emotional abuse should not be tolerated. It is just as destructive as physical abuse. I'm glad you found this forum. We open our heart to you. Let us know what we can do to make this a little easier for you. We care. x

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You need to open the door and throw him out. Send him to the store and change the locks.... you can't keep putting up with this, your peaceof mind is more important

[HearYou]

Well hello! You have been through a great deal in your life. I "listened" to every word. The question is what would you like to talk about first. Maybe putting your ex out on the curb? That is something you may want to consider talking about that with us on this venue and with a mental health professional.He's not treating you with any respect. Mental abuse is bad enough, but I am worried he may treat you worse soon.

You know that saying "How do you eat a whale?" The answer is "One bite at a time." Your first "bite" I would suggest is finding a doctor or therapist to help you physically and emotionally. You have a rather sizable "whale" to tackle, and we are here to listen when you want to "talk". But we are not professionals. We will support you, but you need to take that first "bite" and contact one for help. All of the members on this venue will continue to be here for you too.

[mysmugcat]

Please see this link:

upworthy.com/if-your-nude-p...

You deserve better. You are suffering from domestic abuse, if you had not realised. Look it up and helplines to assist you.