Need Help

[shrs3]

I cant stop with these existential thoughts. Nothing feels real. Like no one and nothing. Im scared. Does anyone get these where you feel like youre nothing. Nothing feels real youre just here.

[HopingCat]

Have I commented on any of your post before? I want to make sure I'm not repeating myself. But I have been suffering from this for 6 months and it's called depersonalization/derealization. How long has this been going on? All I can tell you is that those existence thoughts are the absolute worse but they slowly fade. You just have to quickly distract yourself when they come. Do you take medication?

[shrs3 in reply to HopingCat]

Ive had them a lot the pst three years. Yes, they get better and worse at certain times and im not sure why. It sucks and i want them to be done. I feel like a danger to myself. I was on meds however they did not work, i have klonopin i take as needed. But tonight is so bad i dont know why

[Mldavies]

Definitely sounds like depersonalization/derealization to me. I suffer from this and I feel like I'm not real and nothing around me is real. I know how terrifying they are, they've crippled me for the past 3 weeks. But they do go away in time. If you haven't already I strongly suggest you talk to your GP or get a counsellor if you haven't already.

[shrs3 in reply to Mldavies]

Yea i do see a therapist. Only once a week though so i feel like its nothing. Do you ever frel like l a danger to yourself? i feel like i might think these existential thoughts too hard that i might pass out or idkkk. Its weird

[shrs3]

Im having intense panic attacks right now. My moms talking to me but i dont feel like that's real like i dont know how to explain it. Like i want to just be sedated right bow thats how bad it is. I keeo feeling like in going to die

[HopingCat in reply to shrs3]

If one medicine didn't work then you should try another one. Trust me I know what you are going through. This has been my hell for 6 months and I had all the symptoms. From a brain and thoughts that wouldn't shut up, existence thoughts, hyper aware of self and surrounding, thinking I'm dead, in coma, or a dream. Intense dream vision. The lights and stores trigger dissociative attacks, being around people also triggers those attacks, and so on. It's horrific but I just keep pushing and blocking thoughts and going and going and trying the no medication, the natural way and now 6 months later I can function but this hell is still with me. And Zoloft didn't work for me but now I am willing to try ANYTHING else so my advice to you is to try and get help because we don't deserve to live like this. Especially when I was normal with no disorders and happy.

[shrs3 in reply to HopingCat]

Uhh i lmow what you mean😢 Its the scariest thing to live through every day! I know i was completely normal and then one day i woke up and then it just started. I go through months where its not as bad, and some months wheres it unbearable and i cant leave the house. Ive tried many things. I guess we just gotta keep trying bc i dont know how much longer i can hold on

[HopingCat in reply to shrs3]

How many medications have you tried?

[shrs3 in reply to HopingCat]

3. They made no difference. Right now i have klonopin that i take as needed. Ive tried celexa, zoloft and welbutrin. Ive also tried buspirone

[HopingCat in reply to shrs3]

Are you in the US?

[shrs3 in reply to HopingCat]

Yes i am

[HopingCat in reply to shrs3]

Maybe get the GENESIGHT test. It test your genes to see what medication works for you. I got it done when Zoloft didn't work and when I got the results back Zoloft was in the proceed with caution column. I got off it. Now I hope my new psychiatrist gives me something for the column of meds that could work.

[shrs3 in reply to HopingCat]

I did hear about that! I may have to try it. Is it covered by insurance? I have blue cross

Does

[HopingCat in reply to shrs3]

My insurance covered it. But i don't know if blu cross covers it. You can ask your doctor.

[shrs3 in reply to HopingCat]

Ok im interested to see if thats actually something that works. Mostly im just concerned about my not feeling real symptoms and the racing thoughts about exsistance. But i guess thats part of anxiety? Isk lol