This is only my second post, I am still new to this. I have had anxiety and depression for pretty much 20 years now. I have bouts where I am fine. Recently some things have gone wrong and I am having such horrible anxiety and panic that it is driving everyone I love away. I find myself crying uncontrollably scared of everything so what do I do... call someone. I have cried and told the same story over and over needing constant reassurance every 5 minutes. I know that everyone is tired of me and some people that I love dearly have just stopped responding. I am trying so hard to control it and I am trying to not pick up the phone. I am trying to occupy my mind but its not working. I need someone to talk to just to say everything is going to be ok but people can only do that over and over again until they get tired of me. My chest hurts, my body is shaking, my eyes are swollen and all I want to do is cry. I don't know where to turn anymore. I am worried I am going to lose my job and be completely alone. Can anyone relate?