Like many people here know i suffer from severe panic and anxiety i have trouble sometimes going out and eating out. Just cannot switch off and relax. I am finding this frustrating andf annoying now as its ruining my life.
I have been off work a week now half term and before the break was being phased back into work. I was doing alright but now the thought of returning is stressing my anxiety again.
I should have been trying to ride the public transport ( bus) this week as most of the time is my greatest fear and my only means of transport but have not done so.
This means i have to get a taxi into work which is costing me a fortune. Like most people i have a mortgage and bills and unless i work will not be able to make ends meet.
I just sit and cry sometimes thinking to myself the simplest of tasks i am unable to achieve.
I use to have so much energy but nowadays i am tired and my head feels like a haze. I have an infection of the sinuses at the moment and this is not helping.
I want to feel positive and have some really good days but when the bad days kick in you just feel like throwing in the towel.
Just fancied writing what i am feeling today as i feel i can share with good people.
Hope everyone has a nice day the best thing is the sun is shining
Love Seyi xxx