What a day ...

[Jmerrick22]

Does anyone ever get days where you just feel alone and sad. I keep thinking 💭 like why did I have to be the one to get anxiety will it ever go away , why do I feel trapped , like why me . I pray all the time and I feel like I'm getting no where. Ugh . My work schedule sucks and I end up changing all different shifts in a week but I notice this tends to be worse when I work 3rd shift . I just wish I could feel like my old self again and stop having this damn black cloud over me . Depersonalization sucks I feel like I'm seeing things through someone else's eyes . I'm trying to not cry at all lol and it sucks . I'm a guy and I always have that guys don't cry attitude. Any suggestions on what to do to relieve some stress ? I'm out of ideas 💡. Anybody else ever be terrified your gonna die soon ? I'm so afraid of the unknown and I always am afraid like I'm always in danger . I hate this . I want a relationship and I'm so. Scared that I'm gonna end up alone because no ones gonna put up with someone that's like this and has mood swings and gets forgetful . I don't even know who I am at times anymore it's all complicated and I'm afraid of people thinking I'm nuts . , I hate the negative and paranoid thinking at times . Ugh I hope you guys are having a good day ! 😇😇😇🤗🙂😘

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Hi Jmerrick22 ✋️✌🏻

Yeah I hear you loud and clear and do understand that dark place called Hell on earth - feeling like you do right now - cos I have been there many times in my life -

Can I please ask if there is or Has been something in your life that took you from being Happy - to feeling down and low - because you say you want to get back to how you were before ?

Sometimes life's changes are like a high speed crash to our systems and not knowing what the he'll went wrong or Why it did go wrong ?

Sometimes even moving from one place to another or not feeling you are having too much studying that you're missing out on actual Life and having no " Me " time to recharge your batteries and actually chill out with friends or alone.... or be dealing with problems you need help to deal with and you've let things twist your brain like a vice is crushing it - rather than taking one thing at a time and slowly fixing them individually ticking each problem off one by one and saying Yeeeefeckinhaa at the end of it all . I hope you find what you need to fix and get your life back again in a happier place x

All the best

Elle 🌹👍