Still in constant fear.

[rd1208]

I find it so hard to get away from the feelings I'm having. I have felt like God is warning I'm about to die and I feel hopeless and further away from him than ever. The anxiety carries over into my prayers and every aspect of my life. I'm on 50mg Zoloft a day and the worry never subsides. I know that God can speak no matter how many mess you're on, so that's why I think he's keeping me in fear.

[Jmerrick22]

I was on Zoloft for five days and I had to stop it. It made me feel very impulsive , I had suicidal thoughts , I feel like I'm not myself almost as If I died and I'm left with this hollow shell. I feel like I'm dying every single day I was petrified of dying for the longest time , and now I think I'm that disgusted it's like whatever I feel dead inside anyway . It's just depressing . How long have you been on Zoloft ?

[rd1208 in reply to Jmerrick22]

Almost 2 months now but the fear stays everyday

[Jmerrick22 in reply to rd1208]

I feel your pain

[ACJ1191]

I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND THE WHOLE DYING FEELING I FELT THAT WAY WHEN I CAUGHT MONONUCLEOSIS ONTOP OF HAVING SEVERE ANXIETY AN PANIC DISORDER I THOUGHT THAT WAS IT FOR ME I JUST KNEW I WAS DYING ALTHOUGH THE DOCTORS TOLD ME ILL BE OKAY MONO IS VERY COMMON ITS AN VIRAL INFECTION AN IT'LL PASS I PANIC AN LIVED IN FEAR FOR 2 1/2 MONTHS STRAIGHT THINKING OKAY TODAY IS GOING TO BE THE DAY BUT HERE IAM TODAY I HAVE MY UPS AN DOWNS BUT I KNOW GOD HAS A PLAN FOR ME I TOO THOUGHT THAT GOD WANTED ME TO LIVE IN FEAR I FELT LIKE WAS TORTURING ME BUT AS I BEGIN TO LEARN MORE ABOUT HIM IN HIS WORD IVE LEARNED THAT THE LORD IS NOT A GOD OF FEAR AN CONFUSION BUT OF LOVE GIFTS IN POWER THE DEVIL HAS A GOOD WAY OF GETTING INTO YOUR HEAD MAKING YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS GODS DOING BUT GOD DOESNT OPERATE LIKE THAT IF YOU HAVENT GOTTEN A DIAGNOSIS THATS LIFE OR DEATH THEN YOU SHOULD NOT LET YOUR MIND TORTURE YOU BELIEVE ME IVE BEEN THERE JUST START TESTING YOURSELF START TRYING TO GET YOUR LIFE BACK BECAUSE U CAN SIT THERE A THINK YOUR GOING TO FALL OUT AN DIE THEN GET TO LATE AGES REALIZING THAT YOU SPEND YOUR WHOLE LIFE WORRYING ABOUT SOMETHING THAT DIDNT HAPPEN JUST CONTINUE TO PRAY EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL LIKES NOT WORKING GOD WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU GOD BLESS