I'm 21 years old, I have suffered with GAD for around 6-7 years now. My anxiety started after I was bullied about my weight at school, I was a really chubby kid. When I left school I started a diet and lost loads of weight but actually became obsessed and diagnosed with Orthorexia (obsessed with nutritional food and exercising too much). I managed to overcome that after 2 years, but I still suffer slightly with it today. During college my anxiety settled down and life became more 'normal' and was right up until my third year at university (which I have just completed at a 1st honours degree) and I have been accepted on a Masters Degree to study International Security and foreign Policy. During my third year at university, I had a lot of family issues going on and actually ended up with the passing of my Nan.
Ever since the passing of my Nan my anxiety has got worse and I have slowly developed a different anxiety to do with my health as well. I have developed OCD traits with certain things like checking the door multiple times after I've locked it and even video recording myself looking the door just so I know it's locked.
I was able to manage my anxiety before everything happened during my last year of university, but now I'm stuck as it's getting worse and I can't seem to help it, my girlfriend is picking it up and she said I have changed since the passing of my Nan, I'm more up-tight and compulsive (luckily I can talk to her, but I don't think she understands fully). I have been offered antidepressants by the doctors countless times, but I don't want to that system and be forgot about.
If there is anyone that can give me some advice, I will be very grateful!
(P.s, sorry for my life story but I thought I would contextualise it to help it make sense)