Daily crying spree

[Kerstindyer]

Every day its something new every time I go to the the doctors the results are good I'm so fed up. What if something serious happens n that's the say I decide not to go and it gets worst. I woke up today my left are is partily numb

[Icanbeathis2016]

I know how you feel. I've been crying all week basically. Crying in fear asking if this is my anxiety acting up again. It is tormented me. And yes every day it seems like it's something new. When I'm lying down trying to sleep or rest I feel and get all sorts of wierd thing going on. Sharp pain here, muscle ache there, headaches, brain feels strained, difficult swallowing, now today a whole new something with an throb or ache feeling hitting my hand near my thumb area. Like a pulsing throb and I don't recall this before. And it's freaking me out. Woke up feeling all sorts of wierd things and I immediately felt discouraging and had to leave out the room where my kids were to go cry my heart out.

[Kerstindyer in reply to Icanbeathis2016]

Its really hard too knowing we have kids to look after. Today im feeling a weird movement in my head and different body pains

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to Kerstindyer]

Yes thinking about my kids makes my anxiety even worse and even more afraid for my life. Same with me today, I keep getting little head aches, eye floaters, vision wierd, muscles ache, keep getting cramp or sensations in my legs in different areas. It just wierd. Plus someone can in my job today and said he found out his wife has lupus. And immediately I felt myslef get scared thinking what if I could have this and the doc haven't found it yet. Because he said they've been going to the doc several times and they didn't find nothing until this last particular time. I'm like oh gosh "that's just great" now I'm scared for myself. I get that bad with my anxiety that any time I hear about someone else illness or sickness I think I'm going through the same.

[Angep Star]

It's really hard living in a world full of anxiety. But what if nothing awful happened to you? You never had a serious illness? Something has triggered your feelings of anxiety!! There is usually a cause. Just because something bad happened in the past didn't mean it's your fate to have a bad future. It's possible for you to have a great future. You need help to find the cause and have someone to talk you through it all. You are brave enough and strong enough to do that. When you find yourself having negative scary thoughts think of something nice that makes you smile and feel happy. Take your mind off your fears. Distract yourself.

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to Angep]

I totally agree with what you say. And it's so hard when your so caught up in your own thoughts and negative frame of mind that even if I tried I can't convince myslef it will be ok or it can be ok. It's like my subconscious is right there to bring me right back to being afraid again. But you are totally right and like you said we have to retrain our minds to think more positive. I never realised it was going to be this hard to retrain my mind being that I've always been such the pessimistic type all my life and now that thus anxiety has grabbed a hold of me the pessimist in me is coming out tenfold and probably making this whole process the worst. But thank you for your words.

[Kerstindyer in reply to Angep]

I feel better coming on here or looking at cartoons

[Hidden in reply to Kerstindyer]

There is your answer, distract yourself and you will feel better.

[Angep Star]

I really do understand, I know it's not easy otherwise there would be no one posting on here!! But something I learned which is so true is that emotional pain causes physical pain. So we have all this baggage from our pasts that build up and have no where to go in the end so we start to have anxiety and depression!!! Lots of wired and not so wonderful symptoms. We have our triggers that then catapult you into that scary and Lonley place. But our minds are so powerful and we have to learn how to use them in the right way!! I talk to my self!!! I often repeat I am well, I'm getting better every day. All of this will pass!!! I think you get the idea. If you say it often enough your mind believes it. Imagine good things happening. Visualise good things, things that make you feel happy. Just keep practicing and it gets easier.

[Icanbeathis2016 in reply to Angep]

I truly think you are right. And as you stated that out minds are powerful which I'm starting to realize that the hard and painful and scary way, and it's even harder for me when my mind has always been so condition for so long to be negative or think the worst of thing. Such a pessimist. And now when I really have to depend on my mind to think positive to help me it's too hard because my negative thoughts are right there to battle with me. I've never felt so beat by my own self. I can't stay posture long enough to get through it. I automatically think something bad will happen. And as much as I try to convince myslef or say otherwise, it helps some times but not enough. But like you said I have to keep practicing at this. And I do talk to myself quite often but I guess I have to talk more and say positive things constantly.