can't stop crying...

[miarose]

went into town today to look around shops,first time i've been out in a few days,felt really sick,lightheaded though i was going to faint,it was coming in waves,now i know it was probably anxiety related,but since i came home i can't stop crying,i just cant put up with this anymore,i have no energy and i keep thinking,i would love to get really ill,so i would haveto go to hospital,then i wouldn't have to get out of bed..i need relief from this,its too much for me to handle,can anyone suggest something that works,i can't take a/ds and i have done cbt.I really need help with this.love to you all Miarose.xxxxx

[laineyc13]

hey positive step,u went out the house!!!! that does ease the more u do it,dont let today put u off,each day getting out of bed and certainly stepping out the door is a big thing cause it proves u wont let this keep u down. if crying helps release ur feelings then go for it,dont feel u should hold back the tears,b proud of yourself and think ok so today was tough but tomorrow IS going to be better. it is amazing how the more u push yourself each little thing helps. dont beat yourself up,slow steps,you are not on your own with this.

lots of love to you xxx

[hamble99b]

well done miarose, you did something even though it scares you!

the tears are a natural reaction from the adrenalin that helped you through.

think of it as someone parachuting - adrenaline all the way, then relief & release at landing.

no difference between you and the parachutist - both facing, enduring, & surviving a fear filled experience. be rightly proud!

you are right, it was anxiety that gave you the dizzy,sick,faint feelings,

another natural reaction,

you could be in a bit of "shock" at the moment - the kind you have after any kind of trauma mild to heavy. your body was expecting and preparing itself for the worst scenario . it didn't happen, but the old thoughts were there.

you have started to retrain your brain today.

you may feel a bit anxious again going into town , but, it will never be as bad because your mind knows you did it and are ok. - I think you were brave and I am so proud of, and pleased for you.

respect,

sandra.

ps if it says "comment deleted" it was me, I mis-spelt a word and printed as rude!

[donaf]

Well done miarose uve done really well I do still get these dizzy fainty feeling. Palpitations and other things. What I've started doing is saying to myself right ur feeling fainty and uve got palpitations. These can't hurt u just let them be and except them as part of u. They don't get any worse as it's just a feeling and sensations. It as started working for me but it's taking time. U will get there xxx

[anxietyrr]

I totally agree with everyone's comments, well done for going out. Please don't let the tears stop you. I was crying all round the supermarket the other day as I was at a particularly low ebb, but I was still better for leaving the house and walked the long way home focussing on my breathing. But the main point I wanted to make is when you say you've "done" CBT this does not mean that therpy is not for you. Maybe the time, the therapist or the approach wasn't right. Having someone to guide, support and advise you is really important. And they won't tire of you talking about how you feel. All CBT is is someone looking at your thought patterns from a different point of view. It is very effective if done well. There are other types including psychodynamic and Gesault. I have had a few therapists and now I have the right one who is integrative so uses a range of therories. You will probably need longer than the six sessions you get on the NHS. I do urge you to have a rethink about this. Also there is dance therapy, meditation, mindfulness, joining a choir... Lots of things you can do or read up on to feel better. I wish lots of luck and huge congrats again x

[miarose]

Thank you all for your advice,I really appriciate your concern,and your positive comments.This morning I got out of bed and cried again,was feeling very low,then I read your comments,and I knew you were all right in what you were saying,so I decided to go shopping again,I was a bit shaky,but as time went on I forgot about my anxiety,and ended up enjoying myself.so my day was good,only for you all perking me up,I wouldn't have left the house.I am going to start CBT again,as I did find it good.having to push myself every day to do things is really sapping my energy.but today I feel a lot better..thank you all again...love Miarose xxxxxxxx