I don't know if I need help or if I'm crazy

[Elizabeth04]

I'm so scared there is something very wrong with me. Idk if it's physical or mentally. I feel like I'm going crazy like I should be put into a mental hospital bc I don't act normal.

I have good days and "off" days

I've had more good days lately, but then there are days that make me question.. wtf is wrong with you?.. you act crazy. Like today.. I went for a walk with my son in the stroller, everything was good then later I started having a pain in the left side of my head... I had the same pain last night. I took two maximum strength Tylenol and it desnt seem to help that much. As I was getting up from laying down on my bed I felt like a heat rush over my face and I felt like I was going to pass out or something. I immediately panicked and almost called for a ambulance..but I didn't I just called my mom freaking out. She said calm down your over reacting. That's when I thought.... what if I am over reacting? I think I'm being rational but what if everyone else sees me as crazy? Like it's just a headache what's the big deal? But what I think is.. omg I'm having a brain aneurysm an I'm gonna die and leave my sweet children behind. I don't wanna not act on something that could be fatal??

Man. I need help. 🙄

Ps. These "suggested tags" down here at the bottom really freak me out... just saying

[Christory77]

I think we all go through this. I had sort of the same thing. Started as a head pressure the more I worried the worse it got. Took Tylenol and nothing. Laid down for a couple hours and it was a tiny bit better. Then all of a sudden seemed to disappear. I deal with this pretty much daily. Small things scare me so I'm hyper focused on them and before long I'm in full blown panic. I haven't learned how to beat it yet so I doubt I can say much to help you other than just breathe through it and wait for it to pass. If you're terrified of a medical issue you can always reach out to your doctor for testing. Just be willing to accept whatever they find. Good or bad.

[Elizabeth04 in reply to Christory77]

Thank you. I'm too the point also that I feel like my doctors tired of hearing from me. There for awhile I was calling him all the time. I guess it's my anxiety but I'm scared to call him and him say .. your fine it's just a headache

Anxiety is so embarrassing to me...especially health anxiety. Bc I never know when to act on my symptoms.

I'm also alone with my 2 year old everyday.. and I'm always scared something's gonna happen and he's gonna be the only one with me 😢

[Christory77 in reply to Elizabeth04]

I know exactly how you feel. I'm the one who goes to the doctor and apologizes the entire time. I just have an understanding doctor who knows what I'm going through and is very patient. It's a good idea to find a doctor who specializes with sensitive things and see them. I ask a lot of questions and make sure the doctor understands how I think. If they can be supportive then you've found the right one

[Elizabeth04 in reply to Christory77]

It's good to know I'm not the only one. lol I apologize the entire time as well

I'm hoping when my husband gets home I will feel better. I usually take 1/2 clonzapam a day but I left it in his car this morning 😩 So maybe after I take my medicine I'll feel better. Thank you

[Christory77 in reply to Elizabeth04]

I have a prescription for that but haven't worked up the courage to try it yet. Along with everything else I have a medication phobia.

[Elizabeth04 in reply to Christory77]

It's helps me a lot.

For some reason it's the only medication that I'm not scared to take. I've been prescribed a antidepressant.. but I'm terrified of it!

[Christory77 in reply to Elizabeth04]

I've been offered a few but I just can't deal with adding side effects to what I feel every day. It's just too much to think about.

[Elizabeth04 in reply to Christory77]

That's exactly how I feel. 😫

[TheInjuredBiker]

I noticed you saying you was scared about telling your doctor about stuff because he/she may say "its just a headache" and it'll embarrass you. Let me tell you a statistic my doctor told me. 51% of all GP visits are to do with mental health, be it depression, PTSD, Anxiety etc

They're used to it and will not be judgemental. If it will put your mind at ease, call your GP!

My advice for trying too ease these symptoms is to try breathing exercises, they work great for me. A simple one I do in the middle of an attack is to breathe in through my nose for 4 seconds, hold it in for 6-8 seconds, then breathe out for 6 seconds. Repeat 4-5 times. Also dont be afraid to take meds, I know its hard if you have a phobia of medicine but the way I see it, the side effects cant be worse than this, can they?

Hope this helps, sorry if it seemed a bit blunt and to the point, I didnt mean it to.

[Elizabeth04]

Thank you. It's okay your not being too blunt. That's what my counselor was telling me... he said there's a whole lot more people than you think calling for then things your scared to call about

If I would have never looked up the side effects of it I would have probably taken it by now.. smh I should know better

I looked up the anti depressant and it said may cause irregular heart rhythm... and some other scary symptom... I was like omg yeah I don't want that!!

[Blondiful]

Hi Elizabeth I too am the main person most of the week with my kids and I was exactly like you the fear of them being left alone, I still get the head pressure and stabbing pains but I've learned mostly to just let them pass like just ignore them and it works one or 2 times they scare me and nearly throw me into full blown panic attack, my cbt therapist brought me right back in my childhood and growing up with a brother with a disability and attacks he would have caused a lot of my anxiety and mainly health anxiety and he says the fact we are scared we are going crazy proves we are not crazy which kinda makes sense, I'm here anytime if u want to chat ur not alone with the worry and my Mam is forever telling me to get on with things and I'm over reacting but at least I can talk to her and my sister so feel free to message me, hope u feel better soon and I agree with the breathing exercises they are what got me through a lot of tough times too

[menagerie11]

I am sorry that you are having these problems. It sounds like you might have health anxiety, which is what I have, and it is very disturbing. There are psychologists who specialise in health anxiety; I have just started to see one. There are also websites related to health anxiety. One that you might want to look at is anxietybc.com The health anxiety section is in the children's part, but is still relevant. Cognitive behaviour therapy might help. The anxiety bc website has a cognitive behaviour therapy self-help toolkit. Working through these things on-line can be helpful, but I personally find that getting help from other people, both professional and peers, is what I need. Wishing you all the best.