Hello everyone. I hope you are well. I am new to this site and to the community. Today I had another meltdown because I feel like I am unable to complete all of my tasks for school and work. I want to drop eveything I've worked so hard for and go back home with my family, where I feel safe and accepted. I am afraid that I am going to fail out of my academic program, and I feel like I'm falling behind at work because my anxiety keeps from being productive and from contributing during meetings.
I am currently seeing both a psychologist and a psychiatrist for help, but it doesn't seem to be alleviating much of the stress. I am terrified at the thought of anything related to being social - going to class, to the office, conversations that people may want to have throughout the day - I am not good at them, and my first instinct is to run away and hide. I want to stay home all day and just cry because facing the world seems like more than I can bear. I have no idea how people manage this everyday with what seems like such ease. I'm just going through the motions at this point, not enjoying much of anothing lately.
Has or is anyone experiencing something similar? I could really use some advice from someone who understands and maybe has even overcome what I'm going through.
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