Stressed. Holding my breath.

[Need-hope]

I feel dizzy everyday. Detached. Out of it. If it wasn't for my kids I would be gone. I feel so alone. I drop my child at school. All the mum's are in clicks. I smile at them and just get dirty looks. My partner does not understand my sadness. I never feel well, never feel right. I was such a happy baby. Growing up my mum would tell me she was depressed, it scared me I never understood really. Now I'm so down and she is in a happy place. I don't want my children growing up like me. I've had medical testing everything comes back clear. I'm so fed up with everything.

[Agora1]

Hi Need-hope, you don't have to be your mom being depressed as she was. Feeling detached, dizzy and out of it is anxiety at it's best. You may look well to the other moms but somehow they can sense your disconnection to them. It's hard for those around us to know what it's like to feel so alone and sad. As you said, even your partner doesn't understand it. You can prevent your children from growing up like you and your mom by getting help through your doctor or therapist. There are many new advances in depression today that weren't there for your mother. As well as it was taboo to talk about mental illness years ago. I hope you take that step forward in getting the help you need which will make a big difference in your life. You have a good reason to, if not for yourself but for your children as well. Good Luck..

[Aazz]

Hi there I know how you feel I have 2 kids and have been dealing with anxiety and not feeling right/well since my second was born (2 years). A book that helped me was Dare by Barry mcdonagh. Have you tried medication?

[Aazz in reply to Aazz]

Oh and what about therapy?

[Need-hope]

Took beta blockers never helped. I'm seeing a CBT therapist. My neck hurts and my ear rings too

[Cicinoodle]

Don't you worry about those other Mothers, just concentrate on you and your children. Deep Breathe ... Having children is not easy, you need a little break for yourself. Maybe a night out with hubby or a spa day? Your kids look to you for their happiness, so try to let go of bad feelings more and just love them to pieces as they love you. All the other stuff can wait, it will be there when you are ready and in a better frame of mind.

[Need-hope]

Thanks thats a kind message. I'm a sensitive person. I love caring and kindness if that makes sense but I feel no 1 is kind of cares.

[mdooms]

I feel you. I am so frustrated also. Somehow I feel like I'm getting worse and just ready to give up. Going to Cardiologist tomorrow to see if he can find something. I have become a complete hypochondriac and am afraid of myself.

[Nicki1984]

You are the most important person in the world as a mum to your children. It's hard being a mum you do do much but one day they will realise. Def get some support counselling it's good to talk things through with someone. There is nothing wrong with who you are work on loving yourself and your self-esteem and the rest will follow x

[Chloe-x]

Hi I'm the same I'm 26 married with 2 kids and struggling daily with my anxieties I feel ill all the time! Its making me feel so scared and alone at times.. Ive had a constant headache for weeks thinking its something serious but then i think maybe im just thinking its there. im so fed up and the doctors never help. I hate that I don't feel myself anymore! I also worry about my kids having the same problems as me as my mum had depression when I was young too. I really feel for u as it's very hard just know ur not alone x

[Chloe-x]

Just want to add my husband doesn't really understand either he is the opposite to me he's always so positive and he doesn't worry about things like me it's very hard when the people closest to u don't understand. Im like u always feeling a bit disorientated .. my husband takes my son to school most days as I struggle with social anxiety too its horrible x