So mad at myself

[Chache]

Im so mad at myself for letting this anxiety/depression take over me i hate this feeling if fear and dread all the time i wish it can go away. I hate being afraid of death i be terrified all the time 😔

[Suyee]

Me too 😔 Want to go back the time when I was healthy and happy!!!

[Chache in reply to Suyee]

Me too i hate hate myself all i do is cry all the time and think about death

[JellyRose]

Do you get random spurts of fear go through your body? like an adrenaline rush but that feeling. Cuz i feel like i am getting closer to breaking through my anxiety but then i get this feeling and it just angers me so much. I have a constant nagging subconcious that won't let what ever i am freaking out about go away. I feel like it is getting smaller and smaller... Just take one day at a time like me. It does help some.

[Chache in reply to JellyRose]

Hey jellyRose, yes that's the same feeling i feel every time like im in a roller coaster and all this adrenaline is going through our body and i cant stop it, after all that i feel headaches, i feel tired, my ears get hot, my heart races and my whole body aches after all of this. How about you?

[JellyRose in reply to Chache]

I have been learning to accept the feeling and my body naturally stops it now. I still feel a little hot and agitated afterwards for a minute. When this all first started for me the feeling never stopped for a week straight, it was hell. I finally visited my family and my dad had me checked at the hospital. Once i knew my heart wasn't the issue and that it was anxiety, My heart finally stopped racing. It has been almost a month now and i still get those spurts but they are getting less frequent. It isjust this underlining feeling of anxt that won't go away. Like i have pulled all the daggers out of my body save one that just won't budge, leaving me slightly uncomfortable all the time. And if i move or think in the wrong way,even the slightest, It digs a little deeper for a moment. Trying to sleep can be theworst part for me. THat is the only time it happens frequently as i am about to doze of. like my body is afraid to fall asleep or something. But i am truly trying my best to stay positive everyday in a hope to finally flush this feeling out. I hope you can find the same peace too

[Bluswife]

I know where u r coming from I stress all day long. I feel like I can't breath . it's just my anxiety I know that I have had breathing test done as well as x rays. CT scans but I feel like I should be able to beat this not the other way around . worry bout something that u can't help ugh