I did a search under-"At the end of my rope with panic attacks" and you guys came up. I have had panic attacks all my life. I am now 64 and have a stressful 2 years with the sudden death of a 14 year old grandson who we didn't get to see again so no closure and then his dad turned to alcohol more than usual and went in to rehab and has been clean since but his wife served divorce papers and wasn't willing to work on the marriage. . Just a lot of stress and grief. In February of this year I started waking up in the middle of the night and was already in a raging attack !! I have been on Celexa for years with xanax as needed. I hate taking meds but at least it helps me. Went to new doctor and we ran the gament of new meds. I tried them all, but I sensitive to Advil so you can imagine. I even got so bad I did 3 weeks IOP at a Rehab place. Got much better there, but now they are back again. I have also been through a process called EMDR for PTSD which is suppose to help with these. I have seen a small improvement. My whole family is so concerned about me and I can barely eat and am exhausted from waking every other hour at night with attacks. I have tried the breathing and other coping ideas but that feel of doom consumes me. I literally feel like a lump of clay with no feelings !! Help !! I am not suicidial but don't want to live if I am going to feel this way !!!