Hello everyone. Im dire straits of help or any advice I can be given. My first bout of "anxiety" was on Christmas Eve in 2013. I was traveling to my sister's home. After eating a piece of peppermint candy, it felt as if a piece of candy was stuck in my throat. All of a sudden, I got the sensation that I could not get enough oxygen. After arriving to my sister's house, my friend gave me.5 xanax to see if it will relieve my symptoms. I was able to calm down and went through the next 2 and a half years with minor issues yet manageable. However in the Spring of 2016, life took a turn for the worse. I have been getting hit with everything under the son. My child's father and I are not getting along, my father got sick leaving me to finacially provide for myself, daughter, and parents as well as run the errands/transportation, financially, depleted, had a 25 year old cousin pass away due to a asthma attack which lead to a massive heart attack, and had a friend pass away of cardiac arrest who was 50 years old. After all of of this, my symptoms have completely ruined my life. I have constant chest pain and tightness in the center of my chest and left of my breastbone in which radiates to my upper back, arm pits, arms, and jaw, Weakness in my hands and legs, constant shortness of breath, lightheadness, headaches, knots/numbess in my throat. I have no relief from the shortness of breath and the chest psin typically kicks in during the evening and last all night long. I can only sleep with tylenol pm. I didnt take one last night and did,not fall asleep until 7am this morning. I struggle to make it through work which kills me because I love my job. Things are looking up financially and im still feeling absolutely horrible. Im scared that I will die in any minute. I have been to the er on countless occasions, had everything from chest xrays, ct scans, ekg's, and bloodwork which were all normal. I also spend overnight for observation of my heart and again everything normal. They sum it up to anxiety and gerd. Ive visited my pcp who has prescribed me zoloft and buspar. Ive been on it for the past month will no results. My pcp referred me to a pulmonary doctor which I will see soon but does bot believe I have any respiratory issues. I plan to also visit a therapist as soon as my health insurance begins the 1st of the year, ive researched anxiety techniques over and over with no outcome. I am helpless in this point and basically live within the four walls of my home. Im scared that im having a heart attack because Im obese and a smoker (30, F, 5'3, 306lbs). I am trying to work on changing my lifestyle but its just difficult when I feel like im suffocating. I know the cigarettes dont help but I feel as if it is the only outlet I have. Could this 24 7 nightmare truly be anxiety? What can I do to get on the track if getting my life back? Someone please help me 😢😢😢 im miserable like this. Also, my doctor did mention sleep apnea as the cause of some of this.