So I've had a tough 3 weeks, one of my sons developed shingles then 2 weeks later a really bad water infection. The shingles were easy to deal with as apart from them hurting him he was ok but the water infection was awful....his temperature spiked at 39.9c, he was hallucinating and wouldn't eat. I hardly slept and needless to say my anxiety was at its highest...thankfully he's back to his lovely happy self now.
I've got a new therapist....have only seen her twice....due again to see her every Tuesday.
She's a lovely woman and I'm hopeful that she can help me At my first appointment right at the end she said "im going to give my professional opinion on the conditions you have" I was happy as I could finally know exactly what I was suffering from other than 'just anxiety' but as she started to list it all I felt deflated and just thought 'yup my brains scrambled and I'm a mess' here's what she said I'm suffering from:
.General Anxiety Disorder
.Social Anxiety Disorder
.Post traumatic stress disorder (?)
.Panic something or other
She also told me because I'm suffering with lots of different a types of anxiety it shows her that I'm not able to cope with everyday stresses/threats very well.
I've been down ever since, I've gone through anger and now I'm at the it's not fair part. I just want to be 'normal'....God I hate that word but I'm sure use get what I mean.
Ok so now I'm rambling and probably not making a lot of sense....I apologise, barley no sleep and trying to vent doesn't agree with me.
Have a great weekend x