For the longest I thought I was the only one.

[Strength_2016]

At the age of 21 i experienced my first panic attack. My heart was racing so fast. I felt like I was going to pass out. I had no idea what was going on with my body. The worst part was I was at the restaurant with some friends. I remember hiding myself in the bathroom. At that point I was ready to call 911 but within 10 mins the symptoms went away. So, I called my best friend to pick me up and took me home. I never took the time to research nor call a doctor. A few years later at the age of 25 I had the same experience. I didn't know what was going on. This time I just googled my symptoms. Maybe not the best method but I wanted to get a ideal of what it was. What I really felt was death was upon me. After researching I decided to call and make an appt for a therapist. After meeting with her she gave me medication. Weeks later I had another attack. This time I tried the meds that she gave me. It was the most terrifying thing I've ever taken in my life. I felt like I was super high and hullicinating. I was laying there staring at the walls for hours. Was the walls closing in on me? From that day I told myself " I could fight this". Just like that the anxieties went away. I felt normal again. Now in 2016 I had the same experience. Yes, I made some big life changing decisions. Which may have occur this anxiety back into my life. At the age of 27 anxiety has occurred for about 3 months. This is the longest I've ever experienced. Yes, I'm seeing a therapist. Yes, I'm learning more and more about anxiety. I felt so weird, I felt like I was alone but when I opened my doors and told others what was going on. I found out I'm not the only one in the world.... and I know it may take time but time is all I have to heal and to recover and become stronger than ever. I hope to talk more and learn from others and to help one another stay mindful. 💞

[Agora1]

Hi Strength_2016 it's amazing how a panic attack can go through our body like a tornado and yet 10 minutes later be gone and left with a worn tired body and mind. Knowing what is happening when you experience this kind of anxiety will educate you as well as make you not fear what you are going through. Educating yourself through books is a safe way to get the answers you need. I prefer Google isn't involved since it only helps in bringing about more fears. I agree with you in seeing a therapist especially having some big life changing decisions. That can have a big impact on your on going anxiety. I think you have the right attitude in handling this but I would say to "Accept" rather than "Fight" the anxiety. Like a tickle in your nose, the more you fight to stop that tickle the more you will end up sneezing anyway. Take it as it comes, talk it over with your therapist and find solutions to some of life's issues right now. Keep up the positive thoughts. x

[Strength_2016 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for your kind words. Most definitely every time I use google it pops up something terrifying lol. That's something I have learned from the past week. To accept it and let it go through its course. I can't control nor stop my thoughts. As I meditate it helps me control my breath and keeps me mindful. Enjoying nature and listening to calm peaceful music. There's many solution to anxiety. Day by day it's getting better.