Thought I was doing better

Hey y’all.

My depression and anxiety had pretty much went away earlier on this year up until the last few months.

My grandmother passed away on November 18 and it’s hit me really hard. I feel so much anger, sadness, and happiness. Anger because I never called her as much as I should have and that she never called me. Sadness because I moved out from her house from helping her to be with my husband. Happiness because she’s no longer in this cruel world and she’s no longer hurting.

I have always loved Thanksgiving and Christmas because I was around family. This year just seems like a chore.

Grief is hitting me hard. I’m trying to let go.

I feel like my world is crashing down around me. I have no friends to talk to… at all. When I mean I say I have no friends, I have NONE. My husband tries the best he can.

I just feel so alone. I don’t know what else to do.

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I don't have too many friends. People come and go. I prefer quality over quantity. And I'm so done with Facebook. I'm so sorry you feel so alone. Sometimes we go through what I call dry spells.

[Agora1]

BJayy7, I am so sorry for the loss of your grandmother. Grief is difficult enough without putting the words "should have, could have"

with that emotion. Life sometimes gets away from us and before long we

lose those we love . But we cannot regret what we didn't do.

I'm sure your grandmother would not want you to live out the rest of your life

regretting not seeing her but rather remembering the good family times you did have.

We all seem to just go through the motions when someone we love has passed away.

Allow yourself to grieve within your own time. Sometimes seeing a grief counselor can

help those hard moments.

One day at a time is all we can do in going forward. Keep the love for her in your heart xx

[ABCD98]

I'm sorry for your loss. It's good your reaching out on this forum. I hope you keep well.

[Artyhype]

I moved a year ago and haven't made any friends. During Covid nobody reaches out. Have you thought of going to a therapist? I just finally made an appointment and feel better already knowing I'll get some help and advice. My husband tries too but these are trying times. I'm so sorry about your Grandmother, grief will take as long as it takes. Be kind to yourself

[Nurse001]

HiThe holidays are difficult. I'm currently out of state for a funeral. My brother in law just died of covid. I feel ill and anxiety is getting the best of me. Feeling very alone, not sleeping.

Hang in there as I know things have to get better.

You're not alone so please find comfort in knowing others know what you're going through.