Hello all, I've been reading through all the posts and it sounds all too familiar. I don't know what I have at this point. I get angry. I get sad. I get anxious. My legs are in constant pain like I all of a sudden developed RLS. My bottom row of teeth ache constantly. I can't sleep. My wife and kid suffer because I suffer. I'm a 45 male and I try to think back to my 20's or even 30's and I don't know that I ever felt like this. No motivation. I can't go out. I can't even go to the grocery store. I can't be around people. It's all too much. All I do is worry about "what ifs". Money issues etc. my son was recently diagnosed with autism so that compounds my fears for him.
This is one hell of a rant! I made a doc appt for my sinuses last month and I got to the parking lot (an hour away from my house) and I couldn't get out of the car! I'm so fed up with my self. I hate to sound like I'm sorry for myself. I'm really more sorry for how this effects my wife and son. I feel like they are better off without me in their lives
I have a psychiatrist appt on Friday. This will be my 3rd time going. This is my first time going to this particular psych. I've felt like this for about 6 years now and it's just getting worse
I don't even know where to begin when I talk to the psychiatrist.
I'm sorry. Just so over life at this point. I feel like it's just too hard.