so i am a 28 yr old female, who has had anxiety for the past 4 yrs (after suffering also when i was 10! its is taking over my life now, and making me feel like there is no escape and i will never be normal again. I just dont know what to do, i have 2 gorgeous kids, who do ease it slighty when im feeling really rubbish.
so, for me i constantly have a fuzzy head, and feel dizzy very very often, i arent the fittest of people, and i also have asthma, and a fair few times a day my heart feels as though it is going to pump out of my chest, i bring a cough on myself.. i know its habit but always thinking i have lung cancer. I have a small lump in my mouth which i have convinced myself is mouth cancer, however, i have had lots of lumps in the past which have all been small nodes been scanned and been fine, so im not running to the doctors again...
i took myself to AnE the other night as my heart was doing 138 then up to 150, after ECG and doc talking it was down to 98, everything came back normal and they were happy with me. heart and lungs all sounded normal.
i came out of hospital feeling like i had a new lease of life, and felt clearer than i ahd for a long while... not that it lasted long, a couple of days...
Constantly checking my pulse too, sometimes it pounds when i am just sat down, then that makes me worse again.
the main constant symptom is my head, feeling fuzzy and light headed and its driving me potty, how can i distract myself, when im constantly fuzzy... Starting to think i have a bit of vertigo too..
my therapist said he isnt surprised i had relapse, as ive had lots of stress, my youngest starting school, i hate my job and the mother in law moved in for a few weeks, but i dont know how to escape.. after every session i come away thinking i can do this, but after a few days im back into feeling awful again. Thinking i am going to die and leave my babies.
back at docs on Fri to discuss medication possibilites, but my therapist said under no circumstances to take citalapram as its an anti depressant.
thanks for reading my rant