I was attacked by my brother 4 years ago, and my sisters and mother turned their backs on me and all surrounded him with love because he has a mental health illness. I was resented for not forgiving him. Soon after the attack I became riddled with panic attacks if I went into shops, which led to agoraphobia and general anxiety at home. It was awful. I had 2 bad years but then I worked on things and overcame it all 70%.
Last year I became ill with chronic fatigue, body weakness and felt unwell. I had blood tests done and I have an underactive thyroid and chronic fatigue. I am being treated but it's taking a while to treat it so the levels come down. WIth it all I have developed high anxiety again, trauma type symptoms triggered again and agoraphobia again. I had a bad panic attack at a blood test last September and since struggle to go to any appointments, shops or socialise. I struggle to even open the door to the postman some days. I am unwell and taking care of my children, cooking, cleaning and have to rest often due to my fatigue or i crash and am in bed for a few days feeling weak and unwell. My GP has to visit me if I need an appointment and I live in fear of needing blood tests as I can't go for them, even him coming to do them at my house fills me with dread (now I have social anxiety and fear of blood tests thanks to the panic during one last year). I have fears of ever having a terminal illness how would I cope, what if I needed scans or hospital treatment... how would i cope? Urgh being ill these fears cross my mind every day and i worry the doctors have it wrong and an underactive thyroid can't make you this fatigued and weak.
Can anyone relate? How do you cope with agoraphobia and appointments? I used to be able to do them with my hubby, sometimes alone but now since it returned I can't even manage them with my husband with me. It's horrible. I am having therapy again and i hope in time it will help me.