Maybe i am half-drunk, maybe its 3.48 am here, but i have enough. I dont care if my head is about to explode or there is some chest pain, or i can barely breathe. The most disturbing thing that i havent cried in 1,5 years. I've tried, but nothing comes. No matter how hard i try. Shit, i dont know how to express my emotions. Its all caged inside me. Cant find a solution to this. Fuck this shit.