I can't remember the last time I felt completely awake. Everyday feels like I'm buzzed from alcohol and it's been getting worse to the point where I can't focus on one thing for too long. I try my best to act normal and awake, and I think I'm doing a good job of that since no one notices anything wrong with me. I used to enjoy playing games, knitting, making things and hanging out, but I no longer get excited about these things and I'm not sure if that's just from growing up or I've become numb to the world. I recently moved out of state for the first time, and what should have been an emotional time; I felt nothing. Even as I sit here I feel like nothing has changed. I should be feeling excited and sad to be moving away, but I feel absolutely nothing.
I don't know if this is related, but my sense of smell has been dissipating and I don't enjoy food as much as I used to. My appetite has slightly decreased but nothing serious. I've noticed my fogginess has been getting worse over the last couple weeks, to the point where I'm sitting at my desk and typing this and I barely feel like I'm here. One moment I remember is when I went to the beach with my friends. We get into the water and I stood there looking at the waves, all sound disappeared and my vision was slowly blacking out in my peripherals until the wave hit me and snapped me out of it. I also noticed my memory is not too great anymore. My friends would talk about things we did in the past and I could not remember a lot of the things that we did.
I've never felt intense stress or anxiety so I'm not sure what this is. I deal with stressful situations extremely well, and I actually feel like I thrive in those environments as it gets my adrenaline rushing. I enjoy being outside and playing with animals, and sometimes I feel like this life that I am living (just school, work, school, work) is reason I am this way.
I wouldn't necessarily say I'm depressed. Every couple months I have bouts of sadness and crying, but it goes away. I work extremely hard at studying, and I will be starting graduate school in a couple weeks. My only worry is that this foggy feeling will get worse and affect my performance in school. If there are any tips to getting out of this fog besides making a doctors visit would be great. Any explanation as to why I am feeling this way would be greatly appreciated.