A little more of you...

[MariSan89]

Hi to all friends, Anxiety Community. As I sit here and read posts that are a like and think why do we go through this? Why is it do hard to get rid of this mental problem. I know how frustrating it is to feel so many things that feel life threatening when it's nothing if what you think. I can't help but to think back to were my problem started. I'd love to know how does this start? I'm a nervous person but I did have a horrible stage in my life that totally broke me down. I was so frustrated and angry I'd explode but to me like not to anyone . I'd feel my nerves trembling . Now that I look back many times I didn't control my situations the right way. Can you remember something that might havr triggered this anxiety? Were you normal years ago? Or have you always been a nervous person?

[Hidden]

Hello

Very good question I hope you get lots of replies to this because it will make interesting reading

I am in my middle years now age wise and I believe mine started with anxiety separation as young as 5 years old , I can still recall that first day my Mum left me at school and I was literally clinging on so much I ripped the tights of her legs , from that moment nothing was ever the same again and even that young I started doing little rituals to try & protect myself from that feeling ever happening again , which then as I started growing up became more & more , ocd due to anxiety and so on

Again I hope you get lots of replies as it is such a good question and could make a good discussion

Take Care x

[MariSan89 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you for your response. Ive heard of people saying that it was actually healthy for people to be scared, mad, frightened once in a while in a regular basis that it helps out body adjust to changes and I see that you have been AVOIDING to feel that feeling since you were little. Shoot , I would too. Anything that we don't like we try to avoid . They say hard things in life makes you stronger but for us it has made us weaker mentally. Another question too....how do you feel about scary movies, pictures that are too graphic for example, I can't stand looking at people that have been shot or lost a leg or wounded...I don't like that and yes you guessed it I don't like needles

[Hidden in reply to MariSan89]

Hello

No I don't like that either so I never look at them but I do think a lot of people that don't have anxiety as well find those things disturbing but when we have anxiety we also let things play on our minds more so thoughts and images where someone that does not suffer with go in and out their minds in a second or less we tend to hold on to them which is what feeds the anxiety x

[Jodieloo]

Hi, I don't know when my anxiety started , it seemed to come out of nowhere last year,

But looking back on my early years I was always a nervous quiet child.

My parents had a fiery relationship, arguing, throwing things which I used to sit rocking with my fingers in my ears wishing they would stop !!

I was hit a lot and verbally abused which left a long lasting affect on my adult life.

When I was in my own flat and got a job, the years passed by with no worries and was quite confident .

I met my husband and finally after 15 years of trying we had our beautiful twins and life was amazing . They are my life and would do anything for them.

When the twins started school, things wee still good and met many new friends, one becoming my best friend. But as the years went by our friendship became more difficult and testing. I was always treading on egg shells and that made me change I think.

So then last year, bang .. On my birthday, my first real anxiety attack came and I thought that I would die !! I'm on sertraline now and doing good , I still have my bad days, but I do still wonder what part of my life could have made me like I am ???

Maybe parts of it all ??? Who knows !!

I can't watch scary movies, or crime programmes because I think that that will happen to my lovely little family, I worry about them the most as they are the most important people I'm my life !!

I hope this answers some of your questions , being on here has really helped me 😊

Take care x

[MariSan89 in reply to Jodieloo]

Thank you for your response. I'm glad your doing better. It helps me a lot when I feel one coming and to think ahead of time and say it will pass and it will be ok