Ok, here goes..
I hate sick. Main fear is being sick in public as it would be the most humiliating thing to happen. I have high social anxiety, and need an escape plan in social situations so I know I can get away somewhere secluded in case I need to be sick so nobody will see or hear me.
I also have IBS D - wheat is a problem with me, but even without wheat I still go through bad phases.
Anyway, I cope by monitoring how I'm feeling. Feel a bit sick? I'll stay at home. Off my food? Convinced I've caught a bug. Not hungry? Again, convinced I've got a bug.
So, I've been going about my daily life, as long as I'm hungry, I will take on the world as I know I'm OK and not going to be sick anytime soon.
I love being hungry, as it's the constant reminder that I am OK.
Last Friday, I ate some chips from the local chippy for dinner. High fat, knew there would be a chance of some classic IBS.
Saturday morning, had diarrhea. No big deal, had no pain, got it out and thought I was fine.
Waited to feel hungry, didn't really happen. Felt a bit hungry but not like normal.
Thought it was just a blip, didn't think too much of it.
Sunday, same thing. No appetite, not hungry - felt a bit sicky.
Back to work Monday, had some diarrhea in the morning. No biggie.
Felt more hungry at work, but I put that down to the fact i had diarrhea and not much in my system.
Tuesday and Wednesday, again - no appetite, not really hungry at all, felt a bit sicky.
Thursday rolls around (today) and the same thing happened, except I had a bit of a bellyache. Had a bit of diarrhea at work.
So now I'm starting to get a bit worried, what the hell is going on? Anxiety increased. Left work early and booked tomorrow off work.
So now I'm sat at home, wondering if I am actually I'll and have some sort of bug, or whether my anxiety is to blame for this whole thing?
Apart from the chips last week, all I have eaten are my 'safe' (or so I thought) food.
I just don't want food. Nothing appeals to me. I'll get some slight rumbles, but it's almost like something in my tummy is masking the hunger so I don't feel it properly.
Anyway, I'm trying to think positive, but I am getting concerned now. But surely if it was a tummy bug it would have been and gone by now, 2 days spewing and pooping then back to normal.
Do you think this is all my anxiety?