Okay here goes nothing... My story begins a few years back (3-4) to be exact. I began to get a fear that something was severely wrong with me, and I don't know why. It started out a pain in my head that led me to feeling funny and the beginning of not being able to sleep good at night for as long as I can remember. Ontop of that was an incident with Marijuanna that left my mind completely messed up I could not think clearly, I felt like nothing was real anymore, like I didn't know my own family or friends or who I was, my memory was completely zapped, along with my ability to sleep. Then I started having stomach problems, went to the hospital and they gave me magnesium citrate, drank it, had horrible diarrhea for days that left me feeling weak, with a strange pain in the left side of my stomach and neurological problems with my senses. I couldn't feel much, my legs feel heavy all the time, feet feel numb, just felt very off. At some point I began having chronic head pressure/pain constantly day in and day out, along with problems with my nerves and feeling, and memory, and stomach, and sleep. I wake up every morning with a sick feeling in my stomach and the same sick feeling in my head. To make matters worse I recently gave birth to a beautiful baby girl but literally almost died or felt the closest I have ever come to death. I got a severe headache and shortness of breath feeling the night after giving birth. Was diagnosed with a "spinal headache" which they did a blood patch but guess what? I still have the headache that persists 2 months later.. Ontop of everything else I've been experiencing the past few years. I literally feel like I am dying everyday. I have gone to the ER many times hoping for a diagnosis so they can make me feel better and put my mind at ease so I can be on the recovery to healing. I feel as if I will never get better, and my symptoms will just continue to get worse until eventually I die. All I want is to feel good enough to take care of my daughter and watch her grow up, and be a family with my fiance. I know if I see a psychiatrist they will put me on a bunch of meds that may worsen things. I've been to two neurologists one diagnosed me as depressed, the other recently put me on medication for headaches and sleep which don't help. The headaches are so bad I feel like I can't breathe, and that something is seriously wrong somewhere in my body. I've had CT's and MRI's, EKG's, XRAYS, and all that but nothing comes up. I feel hopeless. My biggest fear is dying, it's all I think about and I feel like it's coming for me soon and idk what to do. Any support would be much appreciated..