Hey all! I joined here a couple of days ago and have been reading through a lot of different posts, some of which have brought me great mental relief. There's a couple of things that I'm experiencing however that are absolutely terrifying me and I can't seem to find anyone else with similar problems! Would love to hear from anyone on here who has the same experiences, or who can explain what the hell is going on!
Basically, I get these "episodes" or waves of feeling LITERALLY like I'm on the verge of dying/ passing out/ having some sort of seizure. My entire body (or at least arms and legs) goes insanely weak and tingly,as if everything's just stopped working, and my stomach area and head feel like they are going to explode with this like intense tingling/ tickling/ churning sensation that is SO HARD to actually describe! These can vary quite a lot in intensity and duration, however most of the time they come on almost instantly and out of the blue (during exercise, at rest, whilst "calm" or when anxious) , with extreme debilitating intensity, and last for a few minutes at the very least. I've had days since this all started (which was christmas day...) where it's not been quite as bad, with only a couple of weak episodes that don't really bother me, but also days (most days) where it's pretty much constant, rendering me frozen whereever I'm sat all day, unable to do anything, and absolutely terrified for my life. I really don't know how I've got this far without calling emergency services.
In the times between these horrific episodes, I just feel dead. A lot of the time I'm quite off balance and it feels as if I'm walking on a matress or a boat in moderatley stormy sea. I'm lightheaded and/ or dizzy and really weak pretty much all of the time and get all kinds of horrible sensations all over my body nearly 24/7 and it's REALLY starting to affect me mentally. I'm currently seeing a therapist for CBT which is definitely helping me emotionally, but there seems to be no sign of let-up in my physical symptoms, and that's the bit I really can't deal with! I had an ECG done a month ago which was all clear (although I wasn't symptomatic at the time that they did it and an therefore convinced that they missed something...) and I've had a blood test done for blood count, liver and kidney function which was also all clear. I'm just really at mely wit's end now with being told it's just anxiety 'cause I'm SO convinced it's not. I don't really have what I'd call panic attacks, never hyperventiallte (or at least, my breathing seems normal) and my heart although elevated and slightly irregular sometimes (which dictor says is normal) rarely ever pounds, only when I'm really anxious, like waiting for an appointment etc.
If anyone can realte to any of this, a response would be HUGELY appreciated! Cheer's guys and gals, apologies for the novel ;L x