Give me strength

[MrsB08]

Walked to shops this morning. Panicked a lot ..but kept going. Called my friend to occupy my mind....Now home n feel absolutely shattered..cold n shaky. Bit calmer ..but need to go food shopping. ..Now do I go and accept anything that comes or wait til tonight and go with hubby. Fed up needing babysat x 😢

[allnew2me]

Well done you. You fought on and didn't take flight. You should be really proud.

Why don't you take a rest and see how you feel from there about food shopping. Don't push yourself too hard all at once or it could backfire. Once you are feeling a bit better about the shops this morning see how you feel about grocery shopping then and go from there xx

[MrsB08 in reply to allnew2me]

Thank you. Yeah I was proud. Just the adrenaline leaving the body leaves me exhausted lol. Can't win xxx

[allnew2me in reply to MrsB08]

It is so tiring. Thoughts racing adrenaline flowing it wipes you out so fast. Shocking really how much it does it xx

[antianxiety]

I agree well done. You have to be proud that must have been really hard but you faced it head on and did it...just wow from me. Soon the fear will not be a fear anymore. I agree that you should take 1 step at a time don't push yourself to much in one day.

You are an inspiration to people just by doing what you did.

Keep it up

God bless

[Agora1]

Hi MrsBO8, Yes you should feel proud but, it's pretty hard to feel anything but thoroughly worn out. I know because I go through this each week when I go

grocery shopping. I hang on to the cart and brace myself throughout the trip.

It is exhausting, tenses my muscle more, makes my neck and head go into

spasm. As my therapist keeps pushing me to forge ahead, I keep getting angrier

and feel no one really understand agoraphobia. When I go to the pharmacy to

pick up my prescriptions, I go to the drive through and get anxious when a car

is both in front and behind me. I wonder when I get home if I've really accomplished anything. Those are the 2 things I do every week and once a month, drive myself

to get a blood test because I am on warfarin. I'm even more anxious being at the

doctor's office even though I not seeing her. It all has to do with not wanting to

make a scene should I lose it. The hardest thing is not having someone at home

to call if I have a problem. It is like needing a babysitter. The internet has made it

so convenient to almost never have to go out by being able to order anything on

line. I know it all feeds into our anxiety but I am scared to take that next step.

I don't remember the last time I've been out to lunch or dinner. I order in.

So MrsBO8, you are not alone in the way you think. I hope one day we can get

the freedom again to go out without thinking negatively. Meanwhile, do your best.

Each step forward will eventually turn into miles left behind. Stay well x

[MrsB08 in reply to Agora1]

Oh my. I'm. So happy you replied as I thought I was the only one with head and neck spasms. I just grabbed my husband and read it out loud to him lol.. xxx sorry that seems terrible x

[Agora1 in reply to MrsB08]

I'm glad you are not upset with my negative post. It's what I go through and what I feel. x