Not posted for a while, but really struggling at the moment, I've tried everything but nothing helps so I thought I'd see if anyone else here has the same struggles as me.
I've achieved a lot of small goals the past to weeks but it just feels like a never ending battle. When will I get to be happy?!
Even thought I've been working so hard whilst dealing with really bad IBS and feeling depressed this past week, my doctor still makes me feel like I'm not doing enough. Do they think I can just get better because I've got a doctor working with me? He doesn't get I've tried all types of help and nothing has helped, why would a GP cheking in every two months make such a difference? It's just such arrogance and makes me feel like he doesn't beleive I'm trying hard enough and so I got t more depressed.
I'm also so fed up with them constantly picking at me. Like every aspect of my life has to be viewed under a microscope and judged, I'm fed up of being told ' that's an avoidance behaviour, you should work on that' on a regular basis. I've been struggling with anxiety, depression and debilitating IBS since I was six so yeah of course I've got lots of things I avoid but they can't expect me to work on them all at once. I'm a human not an octopus!
Sorry for the rant but I'm just feeling like I'm going to burn out trying to juggle so many new challenges at once and not feeling like it enough when I do achieve something, it's like I have to got straight onto the next issue and work on that. Sorry I'm not sure that makes much sense. Why is it that when I ask a doctor or someone for help they think it gives then the right to question every part of my life. Tones Of 'normal' people live lives quite happily avoiding what scares them, it doesn't make them mentally unwell to work round or avoid some things they find hard.
does anyone feel the same or am I just being ungrateful when I at least have a doctor who wants to help me? Rant over! Xx