Hi, I'm new here. I wanted to join as I have been suffering from depression for many years and also anxiety. I have generalised anxiety disorder, depression, unresolved grief, PTSD. The anxiety has only come on over the past few years. As I'm writing this I'm feeling anxious, palpatations, numb. Horrible. I hate going to work, I dont know if its right for me, I've been off a number of times with anxiety, and am currently off with a bad back, though its better now, I think deep down I don't want to go back, at all. And I am anxious which is why I don't want to go back. I want to hand my notice in, the job just makes me anxious. My doctor has said he won't do me another certificate so I've got to go back to work monday. I'm absolutely dreading it. Petrified. I'm worried because I've been off a number of times with anxiety, I had to have a meeting with HR and my manager about my sickness on sept 5th and now i'm frightenned its going to go to the next stage. I was doing well up until this episode and was due to see them again on nov 5th but didnt because of my back. Then was meant to see them yesterday but again because I'm off i didnt. I'm worried I'm going to be asked to leave. Which is making me anxious.
My boss said to me yesterday, as I had said i may try and come back saturday, to go back to my gp friday to say im fit for work. I'm worried about that now, ARGGGGHHHHHHH.
Waffling i know, I just dont know what to do. I'm so fed up with feeling like this.