Ok I'm new here, where to start ...
I've been suffering with severe anxiety / panic disorder/agoraphobia for 8 or 9 months now, in that time I've lost my job, moved out, lost most of my friends its a downwards spiral.
I was such a confident outgoing funny person, last year i went travelling to Australia for 8 months and now I'm a different person, i was prescribed 40mg of Propranolol but i cut them in half and had 20mg a day for 2 weeks and then never took a tab again, i just felt so weird on them and due to such had anxiety i focused on my heart rate slowing down and drove myself into huge panic attacks, i lost my job that week because i became agorraphobic of the office due to having panic attacks there. Now i havent had a job for 2 months, haven't seen my friends for 2 months, can't physically go for meals at restaurants, i have extremely weird eating and drinking habits, i.e NO caffeine as I'm scared my heart will race, i wake up everyday sad, i am in constant fear ALL DAY everyday, i struggle to focus for even a few minutes a day, i never stop thinking i will die or when my next panic attack will be. I just dont know what to do anymore, i google my symptoms everyday causing more panic, just want to be a normal 20 yr old and live my life again, whats happened to me, will i ever be the old me again?