Anxiety, help me please

[Emily95Panic]

Ok I'm new here, where to start ...

I've been suffering with severe anxiety / panic disorder/agoraphobia for 8 or 9 months now, in that time I've lost my job, moved out, lost most of my friends its a downwards spiral.

I was such a confident outgoing funny person, last year i went travelling to Australia for 8 months and now I'm a different person, i was prescribed 40mg of Propranolol but i cut them in half and had 20mg a day for 2 weeks and then never took a tab again, i just felt so weird on them and due to such had anxiety i focused on my heart rate slowing down and drove myself into huge panic attacks, i lost my job that week because i became agorraphobic of the office due to having panic attacks there. Now i havent had a job for 2 months, haven't seen my friends for 2 months, can't physically go for meals at restaurants, i have extremely weird eating and drinking habits, i.e NO caffeine as I'm scared my heart will race, i wake up everyday sad, i am in constant fear ALL DAY everyday, i struggle to focus for even a few minutes a day, i never stop thinking i will die or when my next panic attack will be. I just dont know what to do anymore, i google my symptoms everyday causing more panic, just want to be a normal 20 yr old and live my life again, whats happened to me, will i ever be the old me again?

[dizzychar]

first of all dont google,google can be helpful but not in situations like this,you google a symptom and it brings up the worst.I would suggest CBT therapy,in the mean time,excersize,taking your mind off the symptoms,and do some nice things for yourself,breathing excersizes.

I myself have all kinds of symptoms and feel like i will die all the time,its not nice at all!

hope your ok

[smjtty]

A YEAR AGO I TOOK A HIGH DOSE OF VITAMAN D NOW IM JUST AS MESSED UP IT IS DOING THINGS TO MY BODY I DO NOT UNDER STAND MY EYES ARE SWELLED UP ALL SO NOW MY DOCTOR TOLD ME TO TAKE FISH OIL IT DOSENT DO MUCH FOR ME IM WORRYED AL SO BAD BELTCHING CAN NOT BREATH VERY WELL I ALSO DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO

[Hidden]

Have you tried cbt? I had a telephone appointment yesterday and I honestly feel amazing! Just talking to someone.. I to have the fear that I'm gunna die and it scares the sh*t out of me!! I also brought a book called dare I've only just started reading but I would 100% recommend it! My health anxiety came from no where a few months ago and it was a constant struggle when I woke up I was relieved that I was still alive and nothing happened to me in the night! It's horrific that people go through this! People think it's a mental illness but it's called OCD and millions overcome it with help

[Emily95Panic in reply to Hidden]

JessTay17 Thankyou, it feels so good to know people are going through the same thing! Do you live in England? If so which CBT company have you used, have you got it through the NHS, ive contacted a few but their waiting lists are so long i need help NOW! I'm going to rejoin the gym soon hopefully that will kick start my recovery taking my mind off it and i will definitely get that book thankyou! X

[Hidden]

Yeh I live in Bristol!! It's through the nhs wellbeing it's called I think but not 100% my doctor gave me a number and told me to ring them.. I had my appointment yesterday and the waiting lists are green round here so I've got to wait around a week!! its horrible isn't it.. I really thought I was seriously ill but now I know what I have I can get better and so can you 👌🏼!! Yeh it's on Amazon really good h lol teach you to over come anxiety! X

[Emily95Panic in reply to Hidden]

Thankyou so much!! Im going to go back to the doctors this week and ask for some CBT from them, have you tried any medication, I hated it with this much anxiety i physically can't bring myself to relax knowing that I've had a tablet of any form, so i just pray that CBT will fix me! X

[Hidden]

No I won't have any medication because it dosent cute the anxiety it blocks it out! Be amazing if it did! I brought some neurofen from the chemist and I read the leaflet which I've never done before and I was scared to take them!! I asked the man if the cbt will work he replied yes! Just having that 45 min appointment on the phone has relaxed me so much knowing that I'm not alone ☺️ X